you know it .

you know that you are wrong , so say sorry . 

APOLOGIZE to the people that you've hurt so much .

i know that i'm lacking in each kind of way .

so , yeah . now i apologize to you for that .

why do you always act like this ?

not saying sorry after what you've did wrong .

what ? you want me to say sorry ??

you want me to apologize to you ??

after what you've did wrong ???

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING YOUNG MAN ??

you're such a coward . 

you're so cheap !

i don't even know you well , but i'm giving you the chance to love me .

i'm willing to change myself to be a better person for you .

even when i know that i shouldn't do that .

now i know . 

i shouldn't be so stupid by changing myself to a better person .

i'm already a good one .

INTRODUCING ......

aku ada geng rapat baru ... ahahah .....

this is for eu geng rapat baru ... :)

I am thankful for laughter, except when milk comes out of my nose

Maturity is a bitter disappointment for which no remedy exists, unless laughter can be said to remedy anything

Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid

Love one another and you will be happy. It’s as simple and as difficult as that

I would thank you from the bottom of my heart, but for you my heart has no bottom

wasiat ku ...

When first snow came
We promised that going to walk together this street but now it’s empty street

I’m holding our small rings and our massy memories
What’s wrong
What hates me

I can’t think about it
You may like her because she’s better than me
Please tell me you are sorry or miss you

Even you are not going back to me
You look happy with her so I’ll back you off one step back
I don’t make you smile so it’s useless holding you
I’m not the one that makes your heart is beating
Please tell me you are sorry or miss you

Even you are not going back to me
You look happy with her so I’ll back you off one step back
It’s not so true isn’t it?
I know that everything, I was so scared
But I denyed

I’m sorry, you may hurt too
I don’t wanna see you even by accident but you two are so good together
I’m alright

Even you are not mine I will keep an eyes on you
I won’t forget you so fast because I’m such a slow woman

irreversible ..

You want to leave but I keep holding your leg
I hang on to your arm that pushes me away
You can’t decide what you want, you just humiliate me
There’s not even an untainted, empty place left, only bad blood flows through my body
With a short breath as always, you walk away so easily

Kill me or love me
One of these two
Even if I’m tired, become exhausted, I beg again, once more
You push me away once more
1 second, 2 seconds, 3 seconds, 4 seconds…
If this is the things are, then I want to die

Lie, don’t lie, don’t lie
I hear everything as a downright lie
I get pushed to the edge
Lie, don’t lie, don’t lie
There is no happy ending to this story
There is no “just let go of you”

“Tick Tick” the moving needle is piercing my heart, it makes me cry
Why did you turn me into this, why did you make this irreversible
Everything you say is a lie and lie
After all, I grab and onto you
To the point where I am unaware of the pain inside me
I fall because I can’t even get broken and crushed anymore 
Only black tears are flowing, it became a knife and got stuck in my ears
Your short breath, and poisonous steps, again…

Kill me or love me
There is only one choice
Even if I’m crying, yelling, begging, pleading, you once more walk away

1 second, 2 seconds, 3 seconds, 4 seconds…
I want to die inside you

Lie, don’t lie, don’t lie
I hear everything as a downright lie, I get pushed to the edge
Lie, don’t lie, don’t lie
There is not happy ending to this story
There is no “just let go of you”
“Tick Tick” the time is once again moving, flowing, its shaking my heart, and shaking me
Your words which run towards the end make me come to this point
Everything you say to me is a lie and lie

bukan diriku ..

Setelah kupahami
Ku bukan yang terbaik
Yang ada di hatimu

Tak dapat kusangsikan
Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku

Kini maafkanlah aku
Bila ku menjadi bisu
Kepada dirimu

Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku berbatas
Tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku

Walau kumasih mencintaimu
Kuharus meninggalkanmu
Kuharus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Kuharus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang lama menyentuhmu
Bukanlah diriku

miss MY EX ! (4th episode)

huuuuuufffffffffffttttttttttttttt ... papa, this is harder than i thought .  where are you now ??

Where are you now

When I need you the most

Why don't you take my hand 

I wanna be close

Help me when i am down

lift me up off the ground

teach me right from wrong

help me to stay strong

Take my hand and walk with me

Show me what to be

I need you to set me free

Where are you now?

Where are you now?

Now that im half grown

Why are we far apart?

i feel so alone

Where are you now?

when nothin's goin right?

where are you now?

i cant see the light

show me what to be

I need you to set me free

I need you to need me

Cant you see me

My heart is half empty

I'm not whole

when you're not with me

I want you here with me

To guide me

hold me and love me now

Where are you now?

Where are you now?

so take my hand and walk with me

show me what to be

i need you to set me free

LAST WORD FOR THIS EPISODE : NEED YOU ...

WHEN WILL I SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN ??

WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH MY HEART AGAIN ??

miss MY EX ! (3rd episode)

PAPA !!!!!! bby rndu papa !!!! bby sdey sgt skrg ne ... papa tw .. bf bby skrg ne cheat on me .. hurmm .. keadaan bgni la ne yg buat bby tmbh rndu ma papa .. 

papa .. u're the best jgk ... i want eu .. ari ne bby nmpk papa d tmpt keja papa .. papa pn nmpk bby jgk .. tp spt selalu .. kta buat x nmpk jgk .. hurmm ... papa ... i need eu so much papa ... i wnt to hug eu .. bby mw nanges ne  d plukn papa .. adeeiii .. i mish eu damn fuckin much papa .. i'm fuckin need eu ..

xda sda kata2 yg blh bby ckp skrg ne ..

papa tw .. bf bby yg skrg ne cheat on me .. i mean .. stupid isn't it ? hurmm .. xpa la .. papa tw jgk kn pa yg bby akn buat klu bf bby bgtu .. mcm papa x pnah kena .. hahah .. mish eu soo much ..

mish mw lempar phone papa msuk dlm laut .. ahaha ... adeiii .. miss that moment .. lucu la .. maen lmpar2 phone masuk dlm laut .. dgn simcard dea skali lg tu .. adeeiii ... 

pa ja lg bnda yg gila2 kta pnh buat ?? hurmmm ... ok2 .. we've been to **** party together .. hahah .. so gla owh .. kw sndri pun xtw kn yg party kta pg tu bgtu .. ahahha ... silly sndri wei ... hahah ... 

papa , u're like my UV protector .. u protect me from bad things .. all the bad condition .. whenever i need to be protect ... u're always be there for me ..how can i live without my immunity .. u're like one .. 

my life .. missing eu .. how come ak blh rndu kw smpi bgni skali ne ?? adeii ... aishhh ... knpa la ?? xpa la ..

ermm .. ada crita bru ne .. papa tw ka .. ada boy ne ska dgn bby .. hihii ... cute bha jgk bdk laki tuh .. kwn bby jgk .. hiii ... cute weii .. xtw la klu d mta org kn.. tp d mta bby .. dea cute .. aisshhh .. juz thinking about him make me smile ordy .. hahah .. that cute little creature .. 

LAST WORD FOR THIS EPISODE : SEMAKIN BYK PROB DLM IDUP BBY , SMKN BBY RNDU MA PAPA ...

WHEN WILL I SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN ??

WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH MY HEART AGAIN ??

miss MY EX ! (2nd episode)

hurmm .. rndu .. ilang sda ckit2 dr diriku memandangkn ak sda luahkn d blog ne . thanx blog ! love ya ! muah muah ! skrg ak blh fokus on tahir more . 

aku rasa ak b'salah dgn c tahir sbb ak rindukn kw . sepatutnya ak rndu dea . hurmm . wat to do ? the feeling cannot be resist hunn . wat else can i say ? we do things a lot together . eventhough our relationship is not so long . it's just for a year and half . so , whatever ! 

ok . i did mention yg couple phone tu kn ? yeah . it's so sweet . really sweet . the most expensive thing i've ever had . thank you . 

a lot memories remain in my mind . t'ingat blk . bukannya aku ingat pun . aku t'ingat . tu pun td pagi . tym ak write d blog ne . hurrmmm . 

setelah kejadian dan peristiwa couple phone tu , ak dikejutkn lg dgn 1 perangaimu yg ak x sngka2 .. selama ini klu kw dpn ku , kw diam . i mean , x telampau bising . skalinya tym kta smbut rya sma2 ari tu , t'kejut ak . bisingnya kw . ak pun t'kejut jgk bla nmpk kw smoke . ak sndri pn xtw yg kw smoke . xtw ne cmana ak x tw . huhu . pdhal kta slalu sma2 . mngkin sbb ak x pnh nmpk kw smoke dpnku . even tym kta hangout dgn kwn2 pun , kw x smoke . ntah . mgkin ak buta kot , sbb kazen kw ckp dgn ak yg kw mmg da lma smoke . haha . butanya adibah . 

tym ak tnya kw " since when kw merokok ne ?? " jwpn kw laen plk . kw ckp " sakit bha ak ne . " smbil pgang botol ubat batuk yg kw bru beli kat klinik . hah . apa la . ak tnya laen , kw jwb laen la plk . mw ja ak teriakkn kw , nsib baek ada kwn2 ak . klu x , mmg da lama kna jerit " kw pekak ka ?!!! " adeii . papa papa . ada2 ja . pekak nya . adeii .

urrmmm . ak t'ingat pulak moment yg kw call ak jam 3 pagi gara2 kw mw ak . haha . pa la . rindu kunun . SUDAH LA !! jgn mengada2 . bukan sekali ja kw buat bgtu , mw hampir tiap minggu . npa tiap minggu ? ea la . xkn la kw mw buat phone call tiap2 mlm ckp bnda yg sma . kw bukn jenis bgtu . ak tw . kw pun tw yg ak akn sick bila kw keep on saying the same thing . call jam 3 pagi . apa x gila , then siap ckp " bby , bsok jgn lupa ea . papa ambk . papa mw jmpa before papa pg kerja . papa rndu btul ne ma bby . " adeii . ak tw la . mmg pun kta jmpa tiap2 pagi before kw pg kerja . aishh . apa pnya boyfriend . mcm ja la ak ne pelupa . klu x ckp bnda bgtu , kw ckp ini " kac kosong jadual bby utk besok . besok juz for papa ja k . " ADOOIII !!! tlg la . kw ne pehal arh ??!! ak byk lg bnda mw buat dlm hidupku selain drpd m'buntut kat kw tiap ari ! I NEED SPACE !

ok . sumtym ak rsa ak xda 'me tym' semenjak ak idup dgn dea ne . tp , xpa la . ak happy jgk .

he's like a sugar daddy . he give me anything , everything that i want . but , the difference here is that i don't have to balas semua tuh . bila ak ckp " jgn maen bg ja apa yg ak mw . " kw juz jwb " biarla. " dan bila ak ckp " i'll pay eu back k . " kw akn jwb " no need . kw kn bini ak , buat apa mw byr blk , dah tanggungjwb ak . even kta blm kahwin btul2 , ak consider jgk kta sda kwin . eu know , i'm tryin to berlatih to have a commitment here . so, please help me ok bby . " 

elok la sgt . semua ak dpt , free ja . x pyh mw byr . cuba imagine . he's filthy rich babe , he's makin almost thousand a day . and of course , kerja yg dea buat tuh halal . dan yg pling murni psl dea ne adalah 60% pndptnnya dea akn bg kat mak dea . that's a good thing about him . nobody knows that . ak ja yg tw . sbb dea crita kat ak . even mum dea pn ckp kat ak . so , even d luaran dea nmpk mcm x blh harap and all bad things , he's good inside . only ak ja yg tw that good side of him .

LAST WORD FOR THIS EPISODE : HILANG SDA RSA RNDU KU KAT KW . HAHA . 

WHEN WILL I SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN ???

WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH MY HEART AGAIN ??

miss MY EX ! (1st episode )

ak rndu dea . why is it so ? sbb ak x ska dgn keadaan skrg . skrg ? pa yg jd ? ermm .. skrg ne byk bnda yg ak x ska jd . dlu , tym ak dgn dea . mesti ak happy . nothing to worry about . idup ak snang . happy ja ak . x sedey . mcm ak ne d voodoo or somthg like dat spya x sedey . i dun know . right now , i need him . i'm sorry tahir . but , i need my ex more than i need you . it's not that ak x syg kw sda . tp, ak prlu dea skrg .

dgn dea , ak bahagia . semua org ckp bgtu . ak snang , kwn2 ak pn senang tgk ak happy . x moody . best bha tym dgn dea dlu . skrg ne , we both move on .. on our own . ak doakn dea bhagia la dgn kehidupnnya yg carefee tu . ak crita la dgn kmu ea npa ak blh rndu dea smpi maen post d blog ne .

kmu tw ka . dlu ak dgn dea , ak snang, idup t'urus . x pyh mw pkir byk . even dea tu slalu menyakitkn ati ku . tp ak x pnah give a damn about it . sbb ak phm perangainya yg bgtu . dgn dea , ak rsa i don't hve to worry a thing . our relationship , a relationship yg langsung xda beban . even sumtym ak rsa bban dgn dea . but , overall , xda pa2 pun sbnrnya . 

tw ka npa ak prlukan kw skrg ne ? msti kw tw kn knpa . aduii . rindunya ak mw dgr kw pnya idea yg x msuk akal tu . haa . to think about it pun sda buat ak snyum . hurmmm . ak ingat lg bla ak mngadu dgn kw psl ada lelaki yg blik2 kacau ak d hp dlu . trus kw bg ak idea gila . haha . *****2 .. kw ne .. ada2 ja . ak kesedihan mngadu dgn kw . kw ska2 ja bg idea yg x msuk akal . apa pnya boyfriend ! huh ! tp kw slalu buat ak ktwa kn . apa ja perkataan yg kluar dr mulut mu tu . semua buat ak ktawa . even sumtym kw buat heavy joke dgn ak . tp ak dgn snang hatinya ktawa t'guling2 gra2 joke tu . 

ak ingat lg . tym kta jln2 dlu , kw trus tnya ak psl mandi wajib . hahah . tba2 ne . bkin ktwa . kw pun la 1 bha . sda kw tw ak mcm mna , kw tnya lg ak soalan . akibtnya , soalanmu yg pnuh curiosity tu d tmbh lg dgn muka mu yg pnuh dgn tnda tnya tu d balas dgn satu lg soalan yg memalukn dr ak . hahahahaah .. pdn muka . spa suruh tnya bnda yg pelik2 d otakku . 

ak mc ingat lg . first week kta sma2 , kw accident . pnya t'kjut ak . bru pas kw accident ja , blh ja kw call ak mngadu dgn ak psl sgala kerosakn dan kerugian yg kw alami . alaa . xpa la . sgala damage tu blh d baiki . sgala kerugian tu biar d tnggung . rather lose the money than losing your precious life dear . pastu kw mngadu plk dgn ak gra2 kw demam la apa la .. adeiii . p la klinik bha syg . kw kata kw maw ak . ak tw la kw mw ak . tp tym tu ak exam . xkn ak mw mnta kw pg ambk ak after ak exam ptg tu ? sakit bha kw tu . xkn ak pg rumah kw plk . apa plk family kw kata nti . xpayah la . ak doakn ja kw spaya sihat cpt . cukup la . hehe . sorry papa . 

lagi satu . yg ne ak pelik sgt . psl nick kta . biasanya psgn utk papa ialah mama . tp kta , papa - baby . haha . lucu owh . kata mw buat kelainan kunun . mw muntah ak bla panggil kw bgtu . papa papa . huhuu .. mcm pa . tp skrg , ak rndu mw panggil papa . baby miss papa soo much . merry christmas papa . kta jmpa ka tym christmas ne ? hurmm . p'janjian kta sda t'tunai . ne abes da big final ne . xpa la . x dpt jmpa christmas ne pun xpa . bla2 ja la . papa have fun ya . don't drink too much . i'm not by ur side to take cre of you when eu drunk . hurrmm .

miss tym kta have fun sma2 . kw la tu kn yg slalu bwk ak ke mna2 . adeeiii . miss that tym soo much . pling rindu tym kta smbut birthday sma2 . surprise party owh . d club lg tu . huh . kw tw ka . i even thought of leaving eu that tym kw tw . abes , apa ndak . kw skitkn atiku d hari yg spatutnya ak b'bahagia . kw mrh ak . bru mrh yg .. adeii . mw mnangis ak tym tu . d bentak lg . x pnah2 boy2 ak buat ak bgtu tw . klu ea pn marah jgn la smpi bentak2 . nseb baek kw x pkul ak kn . klu x , msti kta big fight ari tu . however , upa2 nya kw sgaja buat semua tuh sbb kw mw c happy ak tym ak sweet 16 ari tu . hurmmm ... love eu la papa ! haha . best la . thanx to the choc cake . love it ! dpt 2 choc cake utk birthday tahun tu . sweet surprise . sweet birthday . yg pling sweet la tym b4 mw 17 jun . in the middle of night , tym ak tgh happy smbut birthday dgn member2 kta after kw surprise ak . kw trus bw ak kuar . bwk ak pg tepi laut , sweet tmpt tu . memandangkn tu bkn kunak , tmpt tu mmg cntik  . alaa . klu mmg kta smbut sma2 d kunak pun ak x kisah . yg ak kisahkn , kw ingat ka x ak pnya birthday , t'nyata kw ingat . thanx a lot pa . appreciate it so much . 

hadiah pa yg kw slalu bg ak ?? hurrmm .. it's a secret between us kan pa ?? hahah .. adeii .. mw lg b'secret . tym birthday ak yg ke 15 , kw jnji ak kereta . haha . kereta la sgt . kereta mainan . haha . ada2 ja . then , tym birthday yg ke 16 , pa kw bg ak ?? hurmm . diam2 ja la kta . yg pntg bnda tu sweet . t'kejut ak kw bg ak tu . cntik owh .. cute . pndi kw plih . ak pkirkn kw ne x sweet . tp kw la yg pling sweet . 

bnda yg pling sweet kta pnah ada .. apa ea ?? COUPLE PHONE !!! ahahah .. so sweet ..  tym2 raya lg  tu ak nmpk .. ahahah .. bestnya .. hurmmm ... x sngka .. thanx ! 

last word for these episode : sorry x tmnkn papa jln2 d twu ari tu tym bby d twu . sorry pa . lve eu . 

WHEN WILL I SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN ???

WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH MY HEART AGAIN ???

MERRY CHRISTMAS YORABUN !!!!!

hurmm ... rndu bha ak ma c thr ... jmpa sehari ja tu pun skjp ja ..hurmm ...HURRMMMMMMMMMMM ...BIG HURRMMMMMMMM ........xpa la ...even ak mkn ati dgn dea bbrapa ari ne ...even skrg ne pun ak mkn ati dgn dea ne .. huuu ... ckit2 la mw mkn ati bha ...

ndak bha ... dea kata ada dea mw bg ak smthg .. kunun .. xtw la klu dea ingat .. dea kta dgn ak ari tuh ada knun .. xtw la ... dea kata ... hurmm ...

lagi satu yg ak mkn ati ne ...aishh ... jmpa skjp ja ... aishh ... bru ak ne mnyambut krismas d twu .. bukannya d hometownku .. aisshh ... bru berat atiku mw tgalkn kunak ne ari tw .. gra2 dea ja .. nasib baek td before jln pg umahnya .. tu pun kejap ja ... tp best la ... even skjp ... hurmm ...

I MISS YOU LIKE DAMN TAHIR !!!! THAT'S IT !! JGN TNYA LG !

PINGU has confessed . MULDER confused .

tekejut semua org . ak x heran pun . sbb ak mmg tw . yg ak shock kn ialah dea sda dpt kbranian utk confess bnda tu dpn semua .and the question is . dr mna dea dpt keberanian tu ? dia ckp . dea dpt keberanian tu dr ak . wah . bangga ak . haha .

PINGU !!!

GUA TABEK LA SAMA LU SYS !! HAHA . 

berani owh kw mengaku . hikhik . aku x pnah ada keberanian buat begitu unless org yg ak ska tu mengaku kat ak .

arrgghh . miss kmu suma oredi . hurmm . semua rsa terkilanku ilang da kat kmu wei .

mkn dlm ne brg !

kepada sesiapa saja yg membaca . aku minta maaf kat kmu klu kmu terasa . tu kw pnya hal la mw trasa ka x . ak x ckp psl kw pn sbnrnya . so , jgn nak gatal kn otak dan perasaan kw utk sentap2 k .

tlg la . kw sdar la dri kw tu . kw ckp2 org kw pkir kw tu da bgs sgt ka .

lagi 1 . ne org ne . tekilan sgt la ak kat kw . km lyn kw bgus2 . kw buat bgtu plk kat km . apa slh km ? km tw la kw ada life laen . ada kwn laen selain km . tp tlg la . ak ckp la awl2 arh . jgn mw jnji2 klu x d tepati . tiada org suka owh klu perangai bgtu . jd jgn d buat . ati2 bila bercakap . dan berfikirlah sepanjang-panjangnya sebelum berkata-kata . 


kw kn lelaki . aku layan kau bagus2 arh . apa laek salah aku sampai kau buat aku begini . kw badmouth ak . alah . bkn stkt ak ja . kwn2 ak skali pn kw badmouth . kw jeling2 kwn ak . even dorg mw try rpt2 dgn kw . eh . kw dgr cni arh . kw pkir kw tu sepa ka . mcm kw hensem sgt . mcm kw hebat sgt kw buat bgtu . we used to be friends bha kn . and yg last skali ak ingat lg . kw start renggang dgn ak after kw pnya girlfriend pnya cemburu pnya psl . aisshh . itu girlfriend lg pnya psl . mls ak . biarla .


aku tau ini semua dugaan dalam persahabatan kita . ya la . masing2 mw naik kepala . mw ikut perasaan sendiri . xpa la . aku sabar ja . pa2 hal ak lepas dlm blog atau fb ja . so , klu kmu trasa dgn setiap kata2 yg ak post . aku minta maaf . ak x ska org sentap2 ne . plus , ak x ska jgk pndam2 perasaan ne . nti sakit .  


ari ne . ak cerita psl kmu dua . ne sbnrnya blm abes lg luahan ati ak yg terkilan sgt dgn perangai kmu ne . xpa la . nti klu ak x ble thn lg , ak luah lg . 


ADIOS !

ermm .. td maen search2 d bilik .. skalinya jmpa ne .. my poem yg telampau jiwang .. nah .. read la .. 

these was made back at 2007 ..

tym ne ak mc lg zmn2 kanak2 .. kuikui .. ndak la . mc lg zmn2 jiwang .

aisshh .. bla ak bca2 blik suma karya ku tym 2007 . i'm wondering . spa pnya la poem ne . jiwang owh . mau muntah sya . kuikui . apa la . bkin malu sak . ahah .

bha . read la . 

WARNING !!!!

SEDIA WASTE BAG AWAL2 . NTI KMU PUKE , susah laek . rosak lappy kmu kna tuh PUKE kmu . ahah

Cinta

Umpama kain sutera

Bila kusut dan rosak

Amat sukar untuk diperbaiki semula

Hanya kejujuran, ketulusan dan kasih sayang yang tidak berbelah bagi saja yang dapat mengubati

Dalam kemanisan yang dilihat secara zahir

Tersimpan kelukaan yang sukar untuk dizahirkan

Bagaimana rasanya cinta yang penuh dengan 1001 perasaan

Dalam cinta tersimpan berjuta rasa yang sukar diungkap

Cinta

Punya berbagai rasa

Sukar untuk membagi rasa

Dan dibagi rasa pada hati yang benar-benar meminta

Luka selalu ada pada setiap cinta

Tiada cinta yang tiada luka

Dalam keperibadian cinta yang indah di mata

Pasti ada kelukaan

Pasti ada hati yang meminta diri untuk dicintai

Sedangkan hati yang dipinta tidak mencintai dan tidak peduli

Tetapi dalam percintaan pasti ada pengorbanan yang besar bagi setiap jiwa dan cinta

Kadangkala cinta mampu membingungkan diri dan perasaan

Cinta akan datang tanpa di duga

Bersedialah untuk menghadapinya dalam apa jua keadaan

Cinta bukanlah sesuatu yang patut kita tertawakan

Cinta adalh untuk melengkapi diri, jiwa dan perasaan

Cinta adalah untuk dirasai oleh semua orang

Ada orang kata lebih baik hidup tanpa cinta

‘lebih mudah jika hidup sendiri’ dijadikan alasan

Cinta

Kerana cinta ada juga insan menitiskan air mata

Dan dalam tiap titisan air mata itu

Tersimpan makna yang mendalam

Tidak tahu apakah ertinya

Tetapi yang pasti ia adalah sesuatu yang tidak dapat diterjemah melalui kata-kata

Ia tidak akan terluah walau bagaimana sekalipun

Dear someone yang ingin tahu ertinya,

Selamilah ia dengan hati yang tulus, ikhlas dan jujur ….

nah .. tu la poem ak . dat was da very first poem ak buat atas hasil usaha sndri . actually ak x niat pun mw buat poem bgni ne . tp skalinya kazen ak ada ckp dgn " dba , cinta itu umpama kain sutera " nah . ak pun apalagi . menyambung la . kira mcm mastermind la jgk dea tu . kali la . ak pun xtw . kuikuikui .

yg poem ne kn . sua d edit ne . tp ttap mcm pa ja ak tgk . yg real + original poem pnjg btul . pastu mcm laen2 ja . ak sndri x phm . 

nah . yg ini ne buat2 phm ja la ea . hihii ..

the reality about common boys ...

dear my past ,

there's been a lot playing in my mind lately after i found out about your facebook page . i thought that will be the end of it after i added you as my friend and you approved me . but i was totally wrong about it . that was not it .


well . let me tell you something about why i added you as my friend on FB .
1) i want to connect to you back (that's obvious)
2) you're kunakianz
3) we know each other in real life
4) i want to know how do you do (that's all . no more lies!)
5)it's been a long tym i've been looking for you ! you schmuck ! (ok ! that's it ! NO MORE LIES ! )


okay . when i found you back , i told my sister . here's part of the conversation ..


me : sys !! i found him !!!
sys : him ?? who ??
me : him !! ****!!!
sys : OMG! so ? how ?
me : how what ? i found him on FB . i added him . just waiting for his approval now .
sys : haha . so . if he wants you back . what would you do ?
me : i don't know . just wait and see .


SERIOUSLY !! i don't know about it . this time . i can't even think straight for myself . owh ! how this could be ! i can't even think of the consequences for what's happening next and i can't even think about what should i do next if THAT THING that my sister had mention . urgghhh !!!!! LORD , HELP ME . I'M BEGGING YOU PLEASE .


ok . a few hours later .


NOTIFICATION :: **** accepted your friend request .


MONOLOGUE : OH MY GOD ! haha . you approved me . yeay !


so .. what's next ? hurmm ..


***** STATUS : salam  *via Android


MONOLOGUE : wow !! Android ! hurmm ... gettin interesting here . so . let's check out his profile .


PROGRESS : viewing aka stalking his profile .. viewing the photos ..


MONOLOGUE : hurmm ... photos.. added 6 minutes ago .. huuu ... did you miss me ? i don't think so . wow . seriously . you're in singapore right now . hurmm .. work at kazbar . as a ?? wow .. interesting ..


PROGRESS : writing on my sys wall . how do i feel ? guess . lyk schmuck !


please ... remember !! u're taken !! you left him few months ago . you've dated his bestfriend and then you've dated some other guy . and that some other guy is now you're boyfriend . ur sweet cupcake . ur sweetheart .


ok . i've commented on your status . and then wat . we both commented . and . HAH ! you gave me your cell number . hurmm .. u want me to give a miss call .. when ?? i asked u back ..


urrmmm ....


TO BE CONTINUED .....

حبيبي و انت بعيد

My darling when you are far away
Longing for the touch of a hand
Without even a whisper
Cover and put out your hands
As soon as I think of you
You will feel the touch
You say, alone 
And I say, alone
And they are heard as one
My eyes cry for you
Your eyes cry for me
It is one tear
I know you and feel you and I see my eyes in your eyes
As if I was in your embrace
And my eyes have spent many hours crying for you without my sadness or yours

If every soul is in a place
My darling we always have a place that gathers us together
Not time nor man nor fear nor forgetting nor death will stop us

عمرو مصطفى - انا نسيتك (my new obsession)

LISTEN TO THIS .. IT'S A GREAT SONG .. :))

I've forgotten you
That's it
I no longer remember you
I've tired of you
I've forgotten you
I've forgotten how to say the letters of your name that I loved

You've become a page of the past
Your passion has become something ordinary
And no matter how weak my intentions become
I will still tell you I've forgotten you
One time you betrayed me and sold me out
And didn't care about the tears of my eyes
I will tell you 'why am I missing you'
Enough, I've sacrificed so much

The tears of my eyes are over
They no longer kill me and cry
I've forgotten you and you must go away so I can live
I will see girls other than you
And melt again
That's it my heart has become mine
Your place is not my embraces
I'm being cruel just as you were cruel
Not a day did I make you cry
Nor was my heart cruel to you
There will no be getting back together with you
I've left you shall remain