ancur berantakan uda sumanya!!!

ancur uda...
mau retak uda friendship gara2 parents yg x taw hal sebenarnya...
gara2 parents yg x maw dgr & percaya ngan ank2 dorg...
suma ancur...
dorg pkir law dorg halang kta xkn buat...
dorg pkir law dorg sekat suma kta akn nyesal...
no way!!!
tmbh lg dorg tnjuk prasaan 2 law bg2...
pkir2 la sndri...
law mo accuse org...
law mo manipulate org...
t'ingat ak trus dgn kta2...
"ak bkan la spti yg kau fikirkn..."
ilang la sumanya nti ne...
teda uda friendship yg blh d banggakan dpn suma org...
friendship srunk pun mo d rahsiakn jgk ka??
ak pkirkn relationship ja yg d rahsiakn...
skrunk ne...
friendship pun kna rahsia jgk...
ak bkn b'kwn ngan p'jenayah pun...
we all juz nakal ja bhu,,,
jan la anti and accuse and manipulated kmi bg2...
mcm kmi da wat kesalhan yg bsr b2l plak...

u don noe the whole real story...so dun u ever try to give a fucking damn want to comment anything bout wat had happened u bitch!!!

jan ko komen law ko x ska!!!

hurmmm...

4th day of exam...

paper sejarah...

history 1 easy-peasy..

history 2...

soklan yg bagian esei 2 senang...

tp yg men isi2 tmpat kosong 2 yg ssah...

ak ngan dya x jwb suma...

esei ja yg pnuh kmi jwb...

c edi bg kmi jwpn psal ciri2 kepimpinan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W...

huhui....

dea p koyak 2 bku nota gla...

5th day of exam...

paper physics...

paper 1 ok2 ja...

blum gla lg...

paper 2 la...

mcm x b'jwab ja...

mmg gla la cgu fadilah 2 check paper kmi....

hikhik...

6th day exam...

ari yg paling gla....

ermm...

i mean...

paper yg paling gla among the others...

paper add maths!!!

hwaaa!!!

i dun have any idea of what i'm writing on the answer sheets...

huhu...

smpat lg calling2 tyme exam....

kunun mo ambk org..

skalinya org tgu tyme balik...

dea call...

dea kta mac lg dkat gram...

argghhhh!!!!

i'm tired of waiting!!!

i left him & best of all...

he lost me that day...

ak blk ngan c izwan....

luckily c izwan bru ja kuar dr gate skewl...

so...

i walked to home wif him....

hurrmmmm...

izwan2....

blum2 gak i get you...

hurmmm....

still in progress & never give up to get wit' 'chu....

hikhik....

at night....

call c mel...

x sbar tgu esok bab dea ada story utk ak...

psal dea...

so i called her and she told me the story..

a bit scared u noe...

mcm x mo jmpa dea ja bsok...

hurrmmmmmm....

scared gla....

7th day of exam....

paper engineering drawing...

start jam 9.45...

pagi2 da dpt breakfast...

kena mrah olh parent...

ermmm...

need 2 improve myself lot more...

pastu....

blum smpat jejak blok p'tdbiran...

sneak out from da school immediately...

dea pick me up....

went for a date...

juz for 20 min...

but hey!!

better larh drpd xda langsung kn???

plan for the day mo dtg lmbt...

cuz paper start lmbt gak kn...

kata mo p twu lae ikut dea...

tp...

dea mo p sndkn....

x jd la...

balik awl la...

paper start...

ada yg x d jwab...

ada yg d jwab tp x lengkap...

tyme d skewl bru ingat psal french curve...

adoiii....

bru sorg pun xda french curve, i think....

huhu....

tp...

apa2 pun....

ari 2 mmg agak epi la bab smpat lg ak date biarpun ada ckit rsa takut tyme dgn dea....

cuz of mel's story...

hahaiii!!!!

p/s : dun think negatively plak psal mel's story 2..

dea juz cta bout sumthing yg shocking...

never thought bout it...

stop thinkin' bout that shit, asshole!!!

8th day of exam...

paper pen. islam...

senang la...

blh la...

haha...

paper 2 start first...

ok gak...

paper 1 after that...

ok gak....

x la susah sgt...

bab da study ckit ngan c izwan...

adoii....

need to act a bit soft in front of him...

haha...

but...

i'm not acting plastic okay!!??

that soft thing is inside of me...

it's called soft side of me...

it's hard to keluar...

cuz i'm a bit of outspoken person and a bit of loud person...

so...

susah la bha kac kuar sisi lembut 2...

isnin ne...

paper chemist....

finger's crossed ja la...

huhurmmm....

ada date lg ari isnin ne...

not sure pagi atau after school...

so...

dun 4get to bring the sanitizers and brg yg sewak2 dgn nya...

hakhak...

i'm a 'hygiene' person okay?!!!!???

2nd & 3rd dAy oF eXaM...hUhU...

hurmmm...

da lepasz da paper bm ngan bi...

mmg gla la paper bm 2...

mo lepuh tgn ak nulis esei...

soklan peribahasa ada 1 q ak x jwb..

ermm...

soklan paper 1 yg section A tu...

ntah pa2 ja yg ak jwab...

tgu ja la reaksi cgu rasnah kang...

ntah2 kena lempang ak nti...

paper bi pun sma gak gla...

ak ble lpa plak format formal letter...

x ka gla 2...

tp mmg senang ja bha lau bi...

ada beberapa soklan la yg ak musykil...

tp e2 d paper 2 la...

paper 1 ak x ckup msa...

ak mo kac 3 mukasurat wa 2...

tp x smpat...

mende arh..

paper 1 kac 1j 45 min...

tp dea sruh wat esei...

mende arh lu bai...

tp paper 2 lu kac 2j 45 min...

maunya d kac tebalik wa 2 tyming nya...

apa la...

wat esei 1 jam ja..

mana bleh siap...

bru isi ke4 ja 2 lau bg2 tyming nya...

apa yang anda lakukan semasa m'jawab soklan bm???

ak menulis la bha...

mo lpuh tgn ku menulis taw!!!

ak crik2 idea mo tlis apa laek d eseiku 2...

apa yang anda lakukan semasa answer quest bi???

ak dgr mp3...

ak nyanyi2 dgn hati yg senang...

suma org mrah kat ak bab ak snang ati tyme jwb quest bi..

suma org kesusahan...

alaaahhh...

besa larrr bha...

org dengki...

hikhik....

(~_^)

alaaaahhhh..

lg pun...

burink wa jwab soklan xda bunyik2 d dgar...

bguszz on mp3 kn...

x gak sunyi...

errrmmmm....

sumtyme ak wondering gak...

napa la rmi owg yg ak knal kata learning english is too hard...

actually...

it's not too hard 4 eu 2 learn english...

u juz try & try til u got it..

ak pun dlu x pndi bi...

tp bla da ada astro...

ak blaja english dr disney channel...

honest ne ak btau...

ak slaloo tgk hilary duff 2..

apa wa 2 tjuk dea...

urmm...

haa!!!lizzie mcguire...

2 la yg ajaw ak english..

ak tgk cra dorg speaks and their body language..

how dey pronounce da words..

everything...

that's where all my knowledge for english b'kmbang...

cba la kmoo b'usaha 4 learning english...

nescaya kmoo pun pndi english gak..

tp ak bkan pndi bi pown...

cak kmu tnya ak soklan sal grammar...

mau nya ak t'kontang-kanting menangis-nangis m'jwab 2..

adeeiii...

like everybody does, i'm not that perfect in english larrr...

i'm not even perfect in everything...

i juz did my very best in everything..

so...

that's all that i get...

try to think la bai...

hurmmmm...

monday kang paper history plak...

adoiii....

mampuih la ak...

tp xpa...

ak akn jwb gak dgn jwpn yg insyallah normal...

cuz ak ska b2l jwab yg ntah pa2..

pa lagi tyme ak langsung blank...

maunya ja ak tulis beso2 kat answer sheet 2...

"CIKGU, SAYA XTAW KEBENDANYA SOKLAN YG JPN KAC NEYH!!..SOWY CGU...HIHI... (~_^)"

siap ada smile lags 2....

ermmm....

kay larrr...

ak mo chow luk...

da pa2 nti...

ak inform jewrrr...

kay???

k larrr...

daaaaaa.....

assalamualaikum....

lurve AM..

kAu yANg kU sAyaNg

Kau Yang ku Sayang
Dari Dulu
Kini dan Selama-lamanya
Sebelum Kenal Dirimu
Sebelum Jumpa Dirimu
Kau Sering Datang Dalam Mimpiku

Kata Hatiku
Selalu Membisik Kau Adalah Milikku
Biar Lama Pun Kutunggu
Saat Kedewasaanmu
Daku Tak Pernah Jemu Menantimu

Disaat ku Sendiri
ku Bayangkan Wajahmu
Terkadang ku Berilusi
Tentang Dikau dan Aku

ku Harapkan Semua Ini
Esok Kan Jadi Kenyataan
dan aku Berjanji
Kan ku Bahagiakan Dirimu Selamanya

Kuharapkan Semua Ini
Akan Segera Terjadi
dan Semoga Nanti
Bukan Sekadar Impian Belaka

aKhIrNyA aK tAu aPa e2 cINtA...

Kenapa kita menutup mata
ketika kita tidur?
Ketika kita menangis?
Ketika kita membayangkan?
Ketika kita berciuman?
Ini karena hal terindah di dunia TIDAK
TERLIHAT...
Kita semua agak aneh... dan hidup
sendiri juga agak aneh...
Dan ketika kita menemukan seseorang
yang keunikannya SEJALAN dengan
kita..
Kita bergabung dengannya dan jatuh ke
dalam suatu keanehan serupa
yang dinamakan ia
CINTA..
Ada hal2 yang tidak ingin kita
lepaskan..
Orang2 yang tidak ingin kita
tinggalkan...
Tapi ingatlah...
melepaskan BUKAN akhir
dari dunia,
melainkan awal suatu kehidupan
baru..
Kebahagiaan ada untuk mereka yang
menangis,
mereka yang tersakiti,
mereka yang telah
mencari...
dan mereka yang telah
mencoba..
Karena MEREKALAH yang bisa
menghargai
betapa pentingnya orang yang telah menyentuh kehidupan mereka.
CINTA yang AGUNG?
Adalah ketika kamu menitikkan air mata dan
MASIH peduli terhadapnya..
Adalah ketika dia tidak mempedulikanmu
dan kamu MASIH menunggunya
dengan setia..
Adalah ketika dia mulai mencintai orang lain
dan kamu MASIH bisa tersenyum
sambil berkata: "Aku
turut berbahagia untukmu buat selamanya"
Apabila cinta tidak berhasil...
BEBASKAN dirimu...
Biarkan hatimu kembali melebarkan
sayapnya dan terbang ke alam
bebas dan bebas LAGI..
Ingatlah...bahwa kamu mungkin
menemukan cinta dan
kehilangannya..
Tapi..ketika cinta itu mati..
kamu TIDAK perlu mati
bersamanya...
Orang terkuat BUKAN mereka yang selalu
menang..
MELAINKAN mereka yang tetap
tegar ketika mereka
jatuh.
Entah bagaimana...dalam
perjalanan kehidupan,
kamu belajar tentang dirimu sendiri..
dan menyadari bahwa penyesalan
tidak seharusnya ada.
HANYALAH penghargaan abadi
atas pilihan2 kehidupan
yang telah kau buat.
TEMAN SEJATI...Mengerti ketika kamu berkata 'Aku lupa..'
Menunggu selamanya ketika
kamu berkata'Tunggu
sebentar'
Tetap tinggal ketika kamu
berkata: "Tinggalkan aku sendiri"
Membuka pintu meski kamu BELUM mengetuk dan berkata: "Bolehkah saya masuk?"
MENCINTAI...
BUKANlah bagaimana kamu melupakan..melainkan bagaimana kamu MEMAAFKAN..
BUKANlah bagaimana kamu mendengarkan.. melainkan bagaimana kamu MENGERTI..
BUKANlah apa yang kamu lihat..melainkan apa yang kamu RASAKAN..
BUKANlah bagaimana kamu melepaskan..melainkan bagaimana kamu BERTAHAN..
Lebih berbahaya mencucurkan air mata dalam hati...
dibandingkan menangis tersedu2..
Air mata yang keluar dapat dihapus..
sementara air mata yang tersembunyi menggoreskan luka yang tidak akan pernah
hilang..
Dalam urusan cinta, kita SANGAT JARANG menang..
Tapi ketika CINTA itu TULUS, meskipun kalah,
kamu TETAP MENANG hanya karena kamu berbahagia dapat mencintai seseorang..
LEBIH dari kamu mencintai dirimu sendiri..
Akan tiba saatnya dimana kamu harus berhenti mencintai seseorang.
BUKAN karena orang itu berhenti mencintai kita,
MELAINKAN karena kita menyadari bahwa orang itu akan lebih berbahagia apabila
kita melepaskannya.
Apabila kamu benar2 mencintai seseorang, jangan lepaskan dia..
jangan percaya bahwa melepaskan SELALU berarti kamu benar2 mencintai MELAINKAN
BERJUANGLAH demi cintamu.
Itulah CINTA SEJATI.
Lebih baik menunggu orang yang kamu inginkan DARIPADA berjalan bersama orang
'yang tersedia'
Lebih baik menunggu orang yang kamu cintai DARIPADA orang yang berada
disekelilingmu
Lebih baik menunggu orang yang tepat karena hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk
dibuang hanya dengan 'seseorang'
Kadang kala, orang yang kamu cintai adalah orang yang PALING menyakiti hatimu
dan kadang kala,
teman yang membawamu ke dalam pelukannya dan menangis bersamamu adalah cinta
yang tidak kamu sadari.
And now find Ur Love ..........

hUrRmMm..fIrSt dAy oF eXaM.. :)

hurmmm...
first day mmg gla...
apa lagi bla da lama cuti(elehh seminggu kata lama...)
cuti pmr seminggu...
seminggu jugak la online terus menerus...

first day exam...
paper math modern...
skunk ney kira da abis azab la utk math moden...
esok paper bm...
kira paper best gak la..

tp...
ak syukur sgt taw ari ney...
sbab...
at least paper 2 ak x la t'kinja2 x taw mo jwab apa...
specially psal section B td...
buat2 graf...
nsib bek ak ok...
tp tyme jmpa soalan no.15..
mcm mau jtuh dr kerusi ja...
blh nya ak lpa cemana crik upper boudary ngan cumulative frequency...
aduyai...

ney kira ada perkembangan la kan...
compare dr sem 1...
mmg ancus abess...
jmpa ja soalan graf...
mcm mo jatuh ja dari kerusi 2...


apa yang terlintas d fikiran tyme exam berlangsung::::

cemana ak bleh t'pikir org2 len plak...
biasanya ak t'pkir psal "apa la reaksi cgu ak tyme dea check krtas ak ney..."
atau pun...
ak t'pikir psal apa yg cgu ckp tyme dea mengajar...
ney ndak...
blh2 nya ak t'pikir psal...
c taufik la...c manca la...hunny bunny hubbyku la....
psal mimpi c adlin la...
psal c fiqri,suffi, hanis la...
psal sms ku ngan c taufik la...
psal apa yg crita ngan c penny la...
adeii....
gla tul la...

pastu...
blh nya ak t'ingat plak apa yg ak nmpak ari tu....
adesss....
sandi tul tau...
pkiran x pokus sgt td...
cemana bleh jd cem g2 tu..
eeesssshhhhh.....
glak tul taw ak ney...

pastu...
ak bleh plak t'pikir utk artikel yg ak mau wat d blog...
ak bleh gak t'pkir tntg napa ak bleh ska ngan c taufik 2...
adesss....
gla nya ...

mmg ari ni ak x bleh pokus 100% larrr....
2 ja kesimpulan yg ak bleh wat...

tRy tO fEeL...

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

tRy tO tHiNK..

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretned that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...