rindu sma deaa ..

iihhh .. spa bha tuu ... 

apa bha nma dea tuu ... 

tba2 ne rndu sma deaa ....

ada tuu nama deaa ... pnjg nee nma deaa ....

aisshhh ... apa bha nama dea tuu .... hurmmm ....

jap jap jap ... ak ingat balik ...

uurmmmm ... akmal ??? 

dea la tuhh .. haha ...

iishshhh .. apa bha nma pnuh dea tuu ...

iiihhh .. xmo btau laa ... biar laa ... hihi ...

aishhh .. slalu ne t'ingat sma deaa ... rsa mcm mw p tampar2 ja muka dea .. 

hahah .. ak suka ne dlu tym ak dgn dea .. 

suka tmpr2 muka dea sbb dea ska buat muka cute sma ak ..

aiyrrr ... tu budak x matang ouhh ... hahhaha ....

ntah npa ak rsa dea cute .. aishh .. sial laa!! ahahhaha ....

aduuyyy ... shit ne otak ak ... aduyy ... hhahaha ..

tba2 rndu sma deaa ... 

excuse me! this is not the first time .. it's the trillionth time that i keep on missing him .. 

and i don't know why ... hurmmm ....

 <3 Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don’t even know what I’m waiting for anymore <3

he'em ..

Ada org chat sma ak tdii .. dea chat sama ak since last nyt .. hurmm ..

Dea tnya ak .. ak kapel c fikhri akmal ka ?? ak yg blurr2 pun jwb .. “ermmm .. kmu tnya sama dea sndri laa ..”

Abisss ... apa lae yg ak mw jwb .. i don’t even noe what’s really goin on ..

Ermm .. pastuu .. mcm2 la lae dea tnyaa ...  ak jwb ja laa .. no lies .. buat apa juaa mw tpuu .. mls laa .. lg pun ak mmg bgtu .. org tnya , ak jwb laa .. ngam2 lae xda mood .. klu ak ada mood tuu , ak putar balik tu soalan sma dea .. tmbh pening la juga tu krg ..

Huu .. btw , frankly speaking , i miss my life sebulan yg lalu .. sgala aktiviti ku .. biar derita , ak bahagia jg at the same time .. hmm .. 

You Are A Drug

Today was just another day
Emotionless and stale
Everytime I try to reach you
I always seem to fail

You're living in this shell
And you don't recognize your sin
You've taken not just me for granted
But the world you're living in

And so you stand there
And you pray for God to see
But the only one you have to be
Honest to is me

You are a drug,
I cannot quit you
You are a drug,
I'm still lonely with you
You're not in love,
But I still need to
Hold on to you
What have I gotten into?

Everytime I get a taste of you
It keeps me wanting more
Yeah, I suffocate from all the words
You said to me before

It seems as though you speak to me
As if it isn't sure
I know I fight for something
but what am I fighing for?

And so I stand there
And I pray for God to see
I just need the strength alone
To do what's best for me

You are a drug,
I cannot quit you
You are a drug,
I'm still lonely with you
You're not in love,
But I still need to
Hold on to you
What have I gotten into?

And this world is fast
It's passed me by
But you're still here
And I don't know why
You've lost your smile
But we can try
To bring it back to life

You are a drug,
I cannot quit you
You are a drug,
I'm still lonely with you
You're not in love,
But I still need to
Hold on to you
What have I gotten into?

Maybe

Didn't you wanna hear
the sound of all the places we could go?
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know?
It's a cold, hard road when you wake up,
and I don't think that I have the strength
to let you go.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

There goes my ring,
it might as well have been shattered.
And I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered.
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long.
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong.


And someday, I promise I'll be gone.
And someday, I might even sing this song to you.
I might even sing this song to you.
To you, to you, to you...
And I was crying alone tonight,
and I was wasting all of my life
just thinking of you.
So just come back,
we'll make it better.
So just come back,
I'll make it better than it ever was.

Betrayal In Life

I don’t even noe wats goin on skrg nee ... suma jd celaruu .. everything .. relationship, family , friendship ... ak rsa d khianat jaa .. ntah laa ... 

Bf , kwn2 , bff , suma mcm tpu ak jaa .. ntah laa ..thats wat i feel.. honestly ..

Frankly speaking ,  ak rsa mcm ak mw pergi ja dr suma nee .. mls mw hdup d dunia yg pnuh dgn org yg sntiasa khianat .. hurmmm ...

Budak gmuk ari tu ckp dea xda awek .. tp ari tu ak nmpk dea bwk awek plk .. hurmm ... tpu ..

Kwn ckp they will stay wit me no matter wat .. tp dorg backstab ak .. hurmmm ..

He ckp he will love me n will never leave me .. tp npa sda brapa lama ak x pnah dgr crita dr dea .. no text, no phone calls, no poke, no wall-write, not even reply on mw wall post .. hmm ... rsa mw remove jaa relationship tuu ... ak xtw pun apa jd skrg ne between us .. hmmm ...

Hurmmm ...

All i can rely onto now is SD .. dea jaa .. ntah npa .. when bad things come , he will always be wit me .. no one knows me better other than him .. he cares for me when ak rsa ak xda tmpt utk bgantung .. tym org suma x pduli dgn ak , dea slalu ada ..

Knpa ? knpa dea slalu dtg tym2 ak sdiy jaa ?? dea xtw ka klu dea buat gni, ak akn rsa bslah and suma hal ne akn buat ak tmbh bharap dgn dea .. ak xmw jd kan dea skdr kwn ak tym2 ak sedih ja ..  ak xmw dea rsa gtuu and ak xmw buat dea gtuu .. ak slalu buat dea gtuu .. dea mcm x ksah pun ... hurmmm ...

Jgn treat ak tlampau baik bha SD .. ak x pnah layan kw sebaik ini ... ak slalu jht sma kw .. pliss...jht la dgn ak .. treat me equally as i treat u .. pliss ..


urmmm .. 


kmu pkir ak xtw ka yg kmu tu tpu ak ??!! eh ak tw laa .. kan ak sda ckp , i know things .. eventhough ak xmw tw bnda tuu, ak akn tw jg no matter wat ... hurh ... useless laa slama nee ckp .. forever ... kitai kw ja tuu ...tpu ja suma tuu ... urmmm ... mls laa .. 

ENOUGH WITH THE FAKE !

p/s : ne psl la ak bnci cuti lma2 .. byk bnda ak blh nmpk, blh tw, blh dpt tahu .. hurmm .. tp klu x cuti , x best pulakk ... hurmmm ... sda laa .. :'(

complication !

I’m having complications with myself lately .. actually, ak bru sdar bnda nee.. tp ak mls laa nak investigate2 ..

The complications that i’m having are ... ak slalu skit .. skit kpala ..migrain.. plus, ak slalu gak skit bhagian appendix .. ntah la npa... sakit .. slalu tuu skit ..kdg2 dtg jg tuu sakit mcm period pain even ak x period .. hurmmm ...

Tym2 cuti ne bru ak rsa n sedar yg bnda ne slalu dtg.. tym study ak mmg sdar jgkk bnda ne slalu dtg .. tp ak slalu biar ja bnda tu serang ak sbb ak xda msa mw lyn sakit ak tuu .. lg byk bnda laen yg ak kna buat dpd lyan pnyakit ne ..

Plus, ak xska laa mw p kuar msuk sepital/klinik neee .. nti byk lg urusannya tuu ... tym p medical check-up utk plkn sma uitm ari tu pun ak liat sgt.. klu x gra2 bnda tu kna buat, ak xkn buat .. hurh .. buang msa gua jee ..

Hurmmm.. i don’t know wat to do .. ari tu ak ada pg check .. tp ak p check mata ak ja d medical unit kat uitm ... tu pun doctor ada suh p check for further detail dkt optic shop cuz equipment d medical unit d kampus x ckup .. tp smpi skrg ak x pnah pg check pun .. haha ..

Ak xmw la crita sma spa2 ne bnda .. smpi la skrg ... ntah npa.. whoever read this .. ak xtw laa .. setau ak , xda yg bca blog ak ne kcuali adk ak sma kwn2 yg follow ak .. nahh .. kmu2 ja la ne yg tw ..

Oke laa ... thats all for tonight .. teda idea sdaa ..

p/s : klu SD tw ak slalu skit , msti dea p heret ak p sepital .. haha .. mish him damndamn .. x mish sda sma bf ak , mish sma ex ak plk .. abis ak x d mish jg sma bf ak .. teda kbr britaa pun ... :'(

My World Of Boredom ..

hurmm..sda 3 minggu cuti .. tp bru 2 mnggu lebih ak d cni..bosann bangettt..nsib ada tv..haha..aduy..tp tv pun laa...rncgnnya x best..kadang2 ja .. balik2 tgk crita indon..xlma jd org indon la jg .. huu..

aduy na rang .. xlma gla jg ak ne..duk d umah truss.. hurmm..for ur info, since ak pulang nee..x pnah sda ak kuar2..kcuali p jemur kain,ambk kain d jemuran and buang smpah d luar pagar rumah..nahh...coba d bayangin..

p jemur kain tu frequency nya just once,ambk kain d jemuran tuu frequency nya buat msa ini 4 kali..and..p buang sampah d luar tu cuma baru 2 kali..sbb biasanya kerja buang smpah tu atuk yg buat..sbb dea slalu kuar mw p kebun,jd skali laa...

alaa..lagipun, bukannya ak buat keja umah pun d umah ne..ada la ckit..cuci pinggan mangkuk, kemas bilik,lipat kain..pastu, yg laennya..atuk yg buat..mcm masak..kadang2 maksu la masak..iya laa..ak mna la pndi masak..

hah?? cuci kain??kemas rumah??

itu ada org yg buat..maksu byr sorg macik nee..dea dtg stiap ari slasa sma sabtu..jd..mcm biasa laa..kmi d umah ne kmpul baju2 kotor..pastu,pd ari slasa n sabtu..b'soraklah baju2 kotor ini kerana tu macik sda dtg mw p kc bersih dorg..hoho..

hurmmm...aktiviti ku spnjg cuti stakat ini...hurmm...apa yaa???

online = jarang skali..ne kali kedua..

tidur = yes!frequency nya sgt tnggi..tdur dr jam 12 /1/2 pagi..saaaaammmpppaaaaiiiiiii la jam 10 pagi..bgtu la kerjaku ari2..ini kerja tetap ne..

tv = huhay!ne lg 1..frequency nya pun tnggi jgk..sda bgun,mandi,trussss turun p tgk tu tv..crita indon..nahh..amek kw!haha..

mkn = ne frequency nyaa...rendah ckit laa..sbb skrg ne..ak mkn pun tym d suh mkn n tym ada mood ja mkn..ikutkn ati..xmw mkn..bukan apa..xda slera...ntah napa..lapar mmg la lapar..tp tekak xmw trima mknn..pnah ada ari tuu..ak mkn,ckit mw muntah..ntah laa..mmg btul2 xda slera..hurmmmm...

b'sms = ne pun frequency nya rendah yg agak rendah..lg rendah dr mkn..ntah laa..since cuti nee..eh..tp mmg laa..ak mmg jrg sms bhaa..kcuali la org sms ak,tym mw pulang twu,tym raya n ada ocassion t'tntu bru ak sms..bf pun jrg2 sda sms..huu..sunyi kn hidupku??hoho..pity me.. :(

men game = nahh..ne frequency nyaa mw hmpir2 ja dgn yg tgk tv tuu..sbb ambil ak tgk tv,ak men game..d laptop..huhu..mw habis sda ne koleksi game d laptop ku ne ak men..

apa lagi aktiviti ku??hurmmm.....ntah..tu ja laa..

tapi tapi tapii...ak ada satu kegemaran baru..memandangkan ak skrg ne sdg memegang jwtn bambong terhormat utk sebulan lebih..hehe..

skrg kn..ak ska tgk berita..alaa..berita yg jam 8 mlm tuu...hihi...hari2 ak tgk..x pnah2 ne ak tgk brita,skalinya ak tgk jg..haha..aduyy..kdg2 tpkir..mmg kurang kerja btul bha ak ne kn..x pnah2 ne..huhuu..

tp bgus laa..tmbh pengetahuan am..dpt tw perkembangan semasa..nahh...itu bajet 2012 tu pun ak tgk!nahhhhh...ada sma kmu????neeehhhhhh......xda kan????

mcm biasa laa...perempuan...tgk drama bersiri..tp yg ini lg ak heran...biasanya ak x tgk tu crita2 mlayu..skrgg...huh!drama tv3 tu..soffiya??ak tgk tu..ari2..dr isnin smpi khamis..rncgan bru d astro ria..kelaaass kau maria??nahh..itu pun ak tgk jg...ermm..telemovie ka tu arhh d tv1..mencari bidadari??ak tgk...apa lg arhh???hurmm...

hah!drama korea!coffee prince??d ntv7..ak tgk jg tu..pasta??d tv2..ak tgk jg..aduyy...x pnah2 ne ak tgk tv2 dgn tv1..ak tgk!!hoho...

biasa la..klu drama2 siri omputeh..ak mmg tgk pun..gossip girl,CSI,NCIS,perfect couples,hot in cleveland..

crita2 indon pun ak tgk jgk!!sgala movie dorg yg dlu2 tuu..d channel pelangi tuu...ak tgk!!ak paling suka tuu d channel bintang..realigi,opera van java,extravaganza..nahh...

sgala crita d tv tu ak tgk..hohoh...kurang kerja btul bha...ndukk kesian bha hdupku nee...tp yg bgusnya..aktivitiku ne x kuarkn 1 sen pun!sbb..ak tnggal d umah maksu..mkn d tanggung spenuhnya n sgala bil2 maksu yg byr!hihi..

I'M JEALOUS BUT .. MY FACEBOOK ..

kenapa susah sgt mw ckp ??!!! kenapa susah sangat mw ckp those 3 words ??!!
uurrgghh !! frankly speaking, i hate myself .. knapa ssh sgt mw btrus trg arh dieybha ?! uurrgghh !! fuck eu la bitch !
kenapa ssh mw ckp yang KW JELES TAHAP BABI SAMA DEA SAMPAI KAU DEACTIVATE FB KAU A FEW HOURS AGO ??!!!!!!
tp kw gla juga kn x on fb .. pastu kau activate balik .. miahahaha ... buduh ..
oke la fine ! aku cakap la skrg !

ehem ehem !

oke ...

test test .. mic test 1 2 3 ..

1 2 3 go ..

oke ..

mode : mw jerit d telinganya ne ...

AKU JELES LAA .. EH SIAL LA ! APSAL AKU JELES EK ? OH YA .. AKU JELES SEBAB AKU SAYANG KAU BODOH ! IKAN ! UUURGGGHH !! AKU JELES BILA KAU COMMENT2 NGAN DEA , LIKE2 DEA, AND WATSUCHEVER LAA!! POKOKNYA AKU JELES ! UURRGGHHH !! BLH X JGN BUAT ?!! JGN BUAT SYA JADI GILA ?? OKE ??

eeiiyyyerrrr .. ssh la ada bopren ...

update baru :: sya activate balik fb saya sbb sya x than x on fb sya .. huhu .. buduh kn ..

MY FACEBOOK

I deactivate my facebook account today ..

Motif ?? knpa dieybha?? Why?? ARRRRRGGGHHHH WWHHHHYYYYYY ????!!!!!

Hurrmm .. mls mw buka..klu buka fb pun bikin sakit ati jaaaa...jd biarla ak deactivate .. bla ak rsa prasaan dan hati ne oke ckit , activate la blik ..

Ssh jg bha ada fb ne .. bnda2 yg kta xmw nmpk,kta nmpakk..pastuuu, sentap..sakit ati..kecik atii...hurmmm...

Jadi jadi jadiiiiiii....biar la ak mendiamkn diri buat seketika ..

Kepada yang suka buat aku sedih dgn sgala perlakuannya d fb..ak mw ckp ne..

“thanks banget ya udah brjaya buat ak sedih semaksima ini..thanks..thanks sgt2..yaa...gara-gara kamu..gara-gara kamu ini yang buat ak kayak gini...

Thanks sgt2..buat la sesuka hati yang kamu mau..skrg..ak xdpt nmpk sda.. J”