i'm moving on ..

i'm definitely moving on .. i dun even care of what happen next .. i'm juz moving on and i dun even want to care about you anymore .. 
i've deleted you from my facebook page a few minutes ago and i think i'm blocking you too ..
btw, thanx for everything .. for the love, the jokes, the madness, the craziness, and all . i cherished it so much . but i think i'm going to forget it soon. don't want to be so sadly brokenhearted. don't want to mourn on our failed relationship anymore. i'm tired of excuses, tired of getting hurt and i'm tired of crying on something that can't be realize by us or whoever .. i'm tired ... i'm really really tired ..
yeah .. now, i'm blocking you too .. and i'm going to delete your friends and block them too ..
my dear friends , whoever be friends with him .. i beg and ask of you to delete him from ur friend list too .. 


eu said : INDAHNYA BILA DICINTAI ..


by who if it isn't from her that you love so much right ?? i know you love her so much .. i let you be happy with her .. yes .. i blessed both of you .. but one thing i want to say " kau x pgang janji dan kata2mu .. " that's all .


yes . i noe i'm immature . act like a little children who never understand even a bit about everything and so on . but, i need to move on . please . if eu juz can understand me juz a little more .. maybe we can make this up , but , it's too late now ..


yes, i noe i'm childish. act so immature . act like a little baby everytime . i'm sorry . i'm sorry i hurt you so much . and i'm sorry i can't be like who you want me to be . i'm sorry . i'm really sorry . 


i can't block ur friends . it's too much . i juz blocking you so that i don't have to look at your profile anymore . so that i don't have to be so sick anymore. i guess i love you too much until i find it's hard to let go of you from my memories . 


but, no matter how hard it is i'm tryin to forget you .. i will and i can forget you 1000% juz like i did with angah . YES , I CAN !!! I'M FUCKIN CAN !!!!!!!!!!!!! 

and this one is for eu ..

hancur hatiku .. :(

hancur hatiku ..
mengenang dikau .. 
menjadi keping-keping ..
huhu .. nyanyi dulu .. hurmmm ..


hancur hati tak terkata bila adekku kata c mamat sepah ada gupren sda ..
adeii ... ancurnya ati .. pa lagi bila nmpk gmbr dorg tu ... atttooiii ...
macam maw terjun bangunan ja ... hahah ...
c nas-T ada gupren, c mamat ada gupren jgk .. atttooiii ...
mmg T.O.P ja la yg x kcewakan ak ..
laling seung hyun , klu ada gupren ka, bini ka, tunang ka .. jgn kc tnjuk arh ...
nti btul2 ak terjun bgunan ne .. attooiii ...


nah .. tgk kamu la gmbr2 c mamat sma gupren nya .. org ckp guprennya ne adik c rody kristal ?? hurmm .. ancur atiku ... *sambil cabut2 kelopak bunga mawar* (c mamat kunun bagi tu bunga .. ahaks!)

aku doakan kmu jd kawen la .. bahagia sehingga ke akhir hayat .. amin ... sobsob ;(

credit to : ohbulan.com 

i took their photos .. heheh .. thanx ohbulan .. i'll read more ..

gud luck dear !

napa ? napa aku say gud luck ne ?? 
cuz my ex boyfriend .. (lihat imej di bawah ..muahaha ..) akan pergi ke perantauan untuk bekerja ..
jalan sda dea ne mlm .. :(
hurmm .. saya mengucapkan selamat gud luck la utk ddy (nick kmi do...lu haha) 
jgn lupa ea teddy bear mmy .. huu .. pa la ... hurmm .. i'm gonna miss you babe ...

..we used to love.. 

jaga diri d sna ea.. jgn buat hal , tu tmpt org .. jgn mw trepp ja .. kuikui ..
see you tym amek result nti laling .. papai .. <3 muahx! *smooch*

post from yesterday (I OBVIOUSLY MISS HIM SO MUCH !!)

semalam . ak mimpi psal dea . knpa la smpi blh t'mimpi pulak ? adeii . rndu sgt kali suda kn .. hurmm .. 


aduhh . rndu bha ak ma dea .. adess .. x pnah rndu bgni ne ma dea .. hurmm :(

" And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.. For me it happens all the time.. I'm all alone and I need you now.. And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.. I just need 
you now.. Oh baby I need you now.. "

bad guy - joo

Being too hot, i hate it

Me who love only you, i hate it

Just like a fool

A sad love song, i hate it

Keeps getting hurt and whimpering

Shutting my lips to keep me from calling you

Ah~ Im so sorry

If i used to cry, but i will not cry again

Oh, please dont let go this hand that holding you

Ah~ Im so sorry for my weak heart

Everytime you get far away, a big questioning whether you will back

This bad guy, you, an uncapable man

Me who living only looking only at one man, only you

Weak girl, good girl

What if he went away, what if he leave

Being too cold, i hate it

Like other people seing me

Oh, i really hate that look in your eyes

Ah~ Im so sorry Oh~

I will do whatever you ask me to

Let's go back like what we used to

Ah~ Im so sorry for im being young

Being easily bruised, torn apart and hurt

This bad guy, you, an uncapable man

Me who living only looking only at one man, only you

Weak girl, good girl

What if he went away, what if he leave

What if you have your pride hurt?

It's okay if only you coming back

Even now, in front of your house, im here alone waiting for you

That's right, i know nothing beside you, i must be a fool, i really am

Born as a woman with only one day to live

Living with only looking to one man

Bad guy, im a fool

What if he went away, what if he leave

Pneumonia a.k.a watery lungs !

Pneumonia is a general term that refers to an infection of the lungs, which can be caused by a variety of microorganisms, including viruses, bacteria, fungi, and parasites.

Often pneumonia begins after an upper respiratory tract infection (an infection of the nose and throat). When this happens, symptoms of pneumonia begin after 2 or 3 days of a cold or sore throat.

Signs and Symptoms

Symptoms of pneumonia vary, depending on the age of the child and the cause of the pneumonia. Common symptoms include:

·         fever

·         chills

·         cough

·         unusually rapid breathing

·         breathing with grunting or wheezing sounds

·         labored breathing that makes a child's rib muscles retract (when muscles under the rib cage or between ribs draw inward with each breath)

·         vomiting

·         chest pain

·         abdominal pain

·         decreased activity

·         loss of appetite (in older kids) or poor feeding (in infants)

·         in extreme cases, bluish or gray color of the lips and fingernails

Sometimes a child's only symptom is rapid breathing. Sometimes when the pneumonia is in the lower part of the lungs near the abdomen, there may be no breathing problems, but there may be fever and abdominal pain or vomiting.

When pneumonia is caused by bacteria, an infected child usually becomes sick relatively quickly and experiences the sudden onset of high fever and unusually rapid breathing. When pneumonia is caused by viruses, symptoms tend to appear more gradually and are often less severe than in bacterial pneumonia. Wheezing may be more common in viral pneumonia.

Some types of pneumonia cause symptoms that give important clues about which germ is causing the illness. For example, in older kids and adolescents, pneumonia due to Mycoplasma (also called walking pneumonia) is notorious for causing a sore throat and headache in addition to the usual symptoms of pneumonia.

In infants, pneumonia due to chlamydia may cause conjunctivitis (pinkeye) with only mild illness and no fever. When pneumonia is due to whooping cough (pertussis), the child may have long coughing spells, turn blue from lack of air, or make a classic "whoop" sound when trying to take a breath.

How Aromatherapy Works

Aromatherapy was coined by the French chemist Rene Maurice Gattefosse in    1920s to describe the practice of using essential oils taken from plants, flowers, roots, seeds, etc. for healing. 

According to Robert Todd Carrolls The Skeptics Dictionary, the term is a bit misleading, since the aromas of oils, whether natural or synthetic, are generally not themselves therapeutic. Carroll adds that aromas are used to identify the oils, to determine adulteration, and to stir the memory, but not to directly bring about a cure or healing. It is the "essence" of the oil--its chemical properties--that gives it whatever therapeutic value the oil might have. Furthermore, vapors are used in some but not all cases of aromatherapy. In most cases, the oil is rubbed onto the skin or ingested in a tea or other liquid. Some aroma therapists even consider cooking with herbs a type of aromatherapy. 

As aroma therapists went on with dubious claims, Stephen Barrett, MD, looked into these claims at QuackWatch.org. One of the companies he looked at is Aroma Vera, Inc., of Los Angeles . This company claims: essential oils have the power to purify the air we breathe while they relax, stimulate, soothe or sharpen our senses . . . a wonderful antidote to the air pollution and sensory imbalance of modern life. It also claims inhaling the scents balances the biological background, revitalizes the cells, and produces a strong energizing effect on the sympathetic nervous system. 

Another company claiming that essential oils can be used for many different purposes from athletes foot to enlightenment and almost every point between! is Joint Adventure, of Rogers , Arkansas . 

Still part of Dr. Barrettes growing dossier is a practitioner claiming that the technique addresses the nervous system and the energy fields of the body. It soothes the body, cleans the body, clears the body, and tones the body. The Complete Book of Essential Oils and Aromatherapy, by Valerie Ann Wormwood, states that there are around 300 essential oils and that they constitute an extremely effective medical system. 

In the Skeptics Dictionary, Carroll concludes: I would not reject aromatherapy out of hand, however. When I have a cold and a stuffy nose, I'll use Vicks Vaporous, a mixture of camphor, menthol and eucalyptus oil. Strictly speaking, I suppose I am a practicing aroma therapist. However, when I look at what people who call themselves aroma therapists claim, I have to conclude that aromatherapy is a mostly a pseudoscientific alternative medical therapy. It is a mixture of folklore, trial and error, anecdote, testimonial, New Age spiritualism and fantasy. 

I agree with Carrolls findings. I recently bought a Marjoram scent from Aromas Naturals, a company based in Spain and with ISO 9001 certification. I first had my dad use it at night, to test its claim that it will eliminate snoring. My purchase had a 40day guarantee. Guess what? I ended up not returning it, although I was highly skeptical at first. I even bought another jar for myself. 

The question is whether it was able to eliminate snoring? 
As far I know from my family members it sure has eliminated a major portion of it.

it's COFFEE !

Is there a country that doesn't drink coffee? Coffee is everywhere !

The history and development of the beverage that we know as coffee is varied and interesting, involving chance occurrences, political intrigue, and the pursuit of wealth and power.

A sheep herder named kaldi from Caffa, Ethopia observed the aftermath of Coffee beans on the conduct of sheep when he tended his sheep around 600 A.D. He observed that the sheep became hyperactive after eating the red "Cherries" from a certain plant when they changed pastures. He himself ate some cherries and found he became as overactive as his herd. The story relates that a monk happened by and scolded him for "parataking of the devil's fruit". Afterward, the monks soon discovered that eating fruit from the shing green plant could help them to remain awake for their prayers.

He tried a few himself, and was soon as overactive as his herd. The story relates that a monk happened by and scolded him for "partaking of the devil's fruit." However the monks soon discovered that this fruit from the shiny green plant could help them stay awake for their prayers. In the 500 or so years since then it has spread around the world and become an international trade. Although you may appreciate coffee best as your favorite way to begin the morning or as a great conversation starter with friends and business associates, new studies are revealing impressive health benefits of coffee.

The aptness to evolve liver cancer was prevalent among those who had some type of liver ailment other than cancer in the past, who were 60 or older, and who had smoked in the part. The aptness not to evolve liver cancer among coffee drinkers was uniform even if we analyzed their age, sex and drinking habits.

The tendency to develop liver cancer was particularly prevalent among those who had had some type of liver ailment other than cancer in the past, who were 60 or older, and who had smoked in the past. The tendency not to develop liver cancer among coffee drinkers was consistent even if we analyzed their age, sex, and drinking habits.

Indonesian beans: Indonesian beans produced the leaviest, most full-bodied cup of coffee. Its brew is thicker than most but its aroma is not much strong. It is a good dessert coffee and convenient to flavor with milk and sugar.

Indonesian beans: Indonesian beans produced the heaviest, most full-bodied cup of coffee. Hailing from Java and Sumatra, the brew is thicker than most but not as aromatic.It is a good dessert coffee and very suitable to flavoring with milk and sugar.

African coffee is of medium aroma and body with good snap. Kenya and Tanzania offer flavored coffee. South American Coffee of central and South America is the one which offers moderate body, aroma and snap and is widely used for most breakfast blends.

this is MY PRECIOUS !

 INTRODUCING ..

THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE ..

HE'S CHOI SEUNG HYUN (최승현) 

MORE KNOWN AS T.O.P

NOV 4 , 1987

SEOUL , SOUTH KOREA 

AWW .. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH ..

KAU .. KNAPA KAU HENSEM SGT ARH ??

HURMM ... SO CUTE ...

NE TYM ZAMAN DULU KALA .. 

JELEK LAGI MAC .. X HENSEM SGT ..

AK SKA DEA PNYA PNDGN MATA TU TYM DEA BUAT PERSEMBAHAN ..

TYM DEA ACTING .. ARGGHH !! SEMUA LA !! 

I'M SO LOST IN LOVE WITH HIM !!!

KNPA KAU CUTE NE ARH ??

NE TYM PROMOTE LG LOLLIPOP ..

I MIGHT DIE SCREAMING !!!! ARRGGGHHHH !!!!! NOMU KYOPTA !!

I WANNA BE THAT LOLLIPOP !!

HEEHEE ...

 TURN IT UP NOW !! HEY !

FEW PHOTOSHOOTS .. MAKE WOMEN MELTS WITH HIS POSE .. HURRMMM...

I'M ONE OF THEM ...

 NE KURANG CKIT LA ..

LOOK HOW HANDSOME HE IS AT THE BACK ...

HUWAAA .... :))

HEY YOU !! HIHI .. ;)

HIS BESTFRIEND ..

KWON JI YOUNG (권지용)

MORE KNOWN AS G-DRAGON ..

THEIR NEW PROJECT ..

A BIG HIT ! 

I LOVE YOU ! THAT'S IT ! MUTE !

Quotes from Cinderella's Stepsister

“Don’t talk so sweetly to me. I’m not very smart so it really, really confuses me. If I think about it, from the day you came here, till the day you officially rejected me… while you were scolding me for being childish, telling me not to lean on you… you were exactly as sweet to me as you’ve always been. Even if the world crumbles, the feeling that if I held onto you everything would be okay… you did that. You pushed me off the edge of a cliff, and then you’re being sweet to me again — you can’t do that.” – Hyo-sun


“It hurts when I don’t see him, and when I do. It hurts whether he’s here, or whether he’s not. Hurts whether he smiles at me, or smiles at someone else. Hurts whether he calls my name, or doesn’t. As long as I don’t disappear into the earth, I think I’ll continue to feel hurt, Jung-woo, but still, being here is better. Being able to see him and hate him is better than him not being here.” – Eun-jo


“I like you so much, so what can I do? Even if you get mad at me, scold me, are ashamed of me, don’t think I’m good enough, ignore me, scornfully laugh at me, whether you think I’m an embarrassment and put me down… but I like you so much. What do I do then?” – Hyo-sun 

kasi hilang mood sja !

          hey fuckers ! ahah . kidding ja . jgn trasa . actually , tu ja pkataan yang balik2 dtg d ruang minda ne .

          Actually , xda mood bha sya sjk kblkgn ini. Mls mw bls mesej , mw jwb call . sya maw jawab call dr seseorg ne ja . org laen sya xmw . sya x pduli la . sya mw dea ja . number ne ja . 019******4 ja yg call sya bru sya jwb. sya x mw selaen number ne arh .

          xda msa sya sda mw blogwalking, blogging , maki2 org, umpat org. aehh . xda mood jgk mw buat bgtu . tp sumtym tekeluar jgk makian dr mulut ne . adeh . pkoknya SYA XDA MOOD la bha.

          Tadi kn , bgus2 sda ada mood sya . skalinya ada org call sya , sya pkirkn papa yg call cuz ringtone utk caller ne sma bha . skalinya c bangsat pulak yg call .blm lg sya gnti upanya . adeii . mls pnya psl . jd mw d pndekkn cerita sya cpt2 angkat dgn melihat sekilas sja nma caller d skrin hp . skalinya t’nmpak nma c bangsat tu , bru sda sy answer mode ne hp. adeii . knapala . b’debar2 jgk ati sya . dlm ati ne sda memaki dri sndri cuz x tgk btul2 caller id d skrin hp . huh ! t’jwb sda , sya ckp la .

          “ hello ? “

          “ hello ? “

          “ hello ? “ naik pns sda bdn ne . buduh jgk hello2 trus . mw mkn maki ka kw ?!

          “ sepa ne ? “ menanya c bangsat .

          “ kw sepa ? “ ku tnya kw blik ! huh !

          “ sepa ne ? “ aehh . bodoh !

          “ slh number bha kw ne . “ naehh . ambik kw . trus ku c mati .

          bodoh kn . menelefon ja tp bgtu . tahap apa sua kilik mu tu babun . skalinya bbrapa minit mengsms plk dea . “maen2 ja tdi bha “ aehh . pduli pa aku kw mw maen ka apa ka . bukn urusan ku ! mls sua ak dgn kw! p la kw urus c tua tu !

          bgus2 ak ada mood, ilang blk. kw pkir snang ka mw c dtg itu mood . huh !

SAYA BAHAGIA TINGGALKAN KAU :)

             Firstly, let me recall back apa yg tlh tjadi slama 7 bulan kta bsama . Hurmm . byk juga arh bnda2 yg kw buat yg bkin sya happy . Dan x kurang la jgk bnda2 yg buat sya nangis tiap mlm , menyesali stiap pbuatan sya . Sya pun bgtu jgk .. byk jgk bnda yg sya sda buat untuk kw , untuk hubungan kita . I did the very best I can .  BUT , semuanya sia-sia .

          Tidak mengapa . sya tidak kisah itu semua , yg pntg ak bahagia meninggalkan dirimu . haha . LAUGH OFF YOU STUPIDASS !!

          Ak selama dgn kw ne . mcm2 ak jga . spya buat kw bhgia . ak try x swear d blog , d fb ku . ak sopan2 . ak x lyn llaki sgt . ak jga ati kw . suma la ak buat . yg kdg2 ak rsa ak x ptut buat pun ak buat jgk . semua tu demi apa ? demi kau semua itu . demi kau yang ak sayangi . hurmm . tapi semuanya hancur lebur . musnah semuanya. Gara-gara apa tu ? hah??gara-gara apa ? gara-kau la !

          Kau yang x pndi mw hargai apa yg org sda buat utk kw . ak d cni jau dr kw . 380 KM JAUHNYA ~! Cuba kw byg kn . pnya setia sya sma kw ne ! even kw jauh . ak jga setiaku. Aku jga perangaiku. Ak x buat perangai lamaku . kenapa suma tu ? kerana kaw!! SEBAB KAU LA BASTARD !! HANJENG !!

          Ak defend kw depan semua org sebab apa ? bukan sebab aku syg sgt sma kw . jgn perasan . sebab parents aku ! sebab parents aku syg btul sma kau ! kau la KUNUK menantu pilihan . adeii !! mummy , klu mummy tau perangai dea yg btul mcm mana . msti mummy tendang2 sda dia dr idup ak mummy !!

          Aku pikir kn kau la yg pling last . rupanya kw la yg d tgh2 jgk . mncarik jgk ak llaki laen lg . nah . x apa la . x jgk ak perlukan HANJENG mcm kw . kw skadar permainan ku ja .

          Kau bila aku ckp something , bila ak suarakan kesedihan ak psl kta . atau psl apa2 ja la . kw msti ckp “ owh . bha . ea la . ltak la suma slh dgn ak . biar la ak yg tnggung sumanya . “ mcm BABI !! kw la llaki yg pling sial pnah ak jmpa kw tw . huh !

          Ok ! mls sda mw maki2 . pnt sda ne . mw tdo sda . akhir kalam dr ku , AKU TINGGALKAN KAU DGN PEREMPUAN MALANG YG X CNTIK TU . YG CNTIK LG AKU SEBENARNYA , HAHA! C MUKA TUA TU JUGAK KAU PILIH ! KUIKUIKUI . KASIAN . bha . ngam la kalian berdua . yg stu *** mcm shit ! bsr *** ! yg stu lg *** mcm nenek . bsr *** . ngam la ! ngam sgt ! compatibility kmu tu 100% . kahkahkah !! blum puas ati sya ne mw mngolok kmu . dr dlu sya smpan . skrg bru sy blh lpas . sbnrnya mmg sda lma bha ne sya c lpas . tp skrg ne bru mw public2 . huhu . buduh kn . hurmm ..

          Saya tidak akan menangisi apa yang telah terjadi kerana yang berlalu itu tetap menjadi masa lalu dan ia memang tidak boleh di ubah lagi . oleh itu , saya hanya mampu tersenyum dan mengatakan “ saya gembira dengan keputusan yang baru saya buat ini ”

          Eventhough we went through quite a lot , but I don’t feel anything hurts other than when I read the text on the phone and all the comments about you via Facebook . but, I don’t want to feel anymore hurts cuz I found out that you’re no good to me.

OKAY !! JOM COUNTDOWN RAMAI-RAMAI SEMUANYA !!!!

WOOHOOO !!!! LET’S DRINK !!! KOMBE !!!!!

I’m not goin to waste my tym to cry and regret !

MY PRECIOUS ..

Shy whisper , soaking through the rim of the ear

Our memories are piling up

Foolish and pretty images that we see of each other

Like sunshine that comes through the streetlight in the alley

You gave me a small dream, something I never knew

My precious , warm enough to erase the memories that were like a thorn

My precious, fluttered enough to keep the memories of the past summer

The glitter on your eyes that is breaking by the refreshing wind

The memories of my innocent days come to my heart

My lost wishes that I really wanted

When I turn around and see that all my memories are gone

You held my two hands tight when I thought I would be alone

My precious, you touched my broken heart without any words

My precious, the flutters that allow me to do anything if you are with me

My precious, warmer than any sunshine

You touched my broken heart without any words

My precious, cleaner than any sky

My precious, clearer than any glass

The flutters that allow me to do anything if you are with me …

MY PRECIOUS ..

thanx SD ..

this is getting cooler .

better than I thought .

WELCOME BACK PAPA !

I MISS YOU SO MUCH .

finally u've come back . i'm happy , happy so much . but i cant let a single tears of joy tearing down . i just couldnt't . there are no more tears that i can let out , even if it for happiness .

papa , eu dun noe how miser my life was when u're not with me . 

thanx papa . for saving me once again . i owe eu big . 

come to me ..

something bad had happen . i dunno wat to do .

seems like i'm lost .

need eu by my side now ..

i juz dunno wat to do .

eMo mE.... (jilid 2)

usually,people think that i’m a strong,happy person..
but behind my smiles they just don’t know how much i’m in pain and almost broken..

its hard knowing the fact everyone thinks you have a wonderful life, fun , happy, and cheerful life, but when you are alone, you cry for no reason you just cry and cry till you feel happy and then when you are happy you want to feel sad again and just keep crying

you know that it hurts .. so why did you say it ?? why did you do it ???