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Aku Akan Terus Bertahan.. :')

Kau lukai hati dan perasaan ini..

Tapi entah mengapa aku masih mampu memberikan maaf padamu..

Mungkin kerana cinta kepadamu tulus dari dasar hatiku..

Mungkin kerana aku berharap kau dapat mengerti cintaku..

Lihat aku di sini bertahan walau kau sering menyakiti..

Hingga air mataku tak dapat menitis dan habis terurai..

Meski kau terus sakiti aku..

Cinta ini akan selalu memaafkan..

Dan aku percaya nanti engkau akan mengerti bila cintaku takkan mati..

Hanya Aku

Bersama janji kau sentuh rasa percaya
Hangat dinginmu mengundang rindu kecewa
Hanya aku dihuni sepi rasa kasihmu

Hanya ku yang mencari
Rembulan masih ada
Mungkin seketika
Walau ku bahagia mengejar bayanganmu
Tak mungkin ku beroleh saat indah bersamamu
Hanya aku
Apakah mungkin berulang janji setia
Apa kan kekal ataupun menyambut duka
Dan dirimu di janji Sang Sempurna
Dan kecewa kini dipulih rasa kasihmu
Dihuni rasa rindu
Dingin rasa kasihmu
Bagai bintang bersemi
Rindu janji bicara
Kekal selamanya
Walau sekadar mimpi
Tak pernah ku peduli
Selamanya kan ku pasti merindui dirimu
Hanya aku ..

Maybe

Didn't you wanna hear
the sound of all the places we could go?
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know?
It's a cold, hard road when you wake up,
and I don't think that I have the strength
to let you go.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

There goes my ring,
it might as well have been shattered.
And I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered.
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long.
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong.


And someday, I promise I'll be gone.
And someday, I might even sing this song to you.
I might even sing this song to you.
To you, to you, to you...
And I was crying alone tonight,
and I was wasting all of my life
just thinking of you.
So just come back,
we'll make it better.
So just come back,
I'll make it better than it ever was.

cinta pertama

Jantungku berdebar tiap kuingat padamu
Mengapa ada yang kurang saat kau tak ada
Melihatmu menyentuhmu itu yang kumau
Kau tak sempat tanyakan aku
Cintakah aku padamu
Tiap kali aku berlutut aku berdoa
Suatu saat kau bisa cinta padaku
Tiap kali aku memanggil di dalam hati
Apa kabarmu kabarku baik baik saja
Begitu banyak cerita tak habis tentangmu
Salamku untukmu dari hati yang terdalam

Kau tak sempat tanyakan aku
Cintakah aku padamu

untuk tahir ..

          aku rndu kau sgt2 tahir. ak xtw npa . sjak kblkgn ini aku rindu kau . rindu. rindu yg teramat sgt. dan jgn tnya npa ak blh rndu kw ne . ak sendiri pun xtw.

         

          aku mau minta maaf kat kau . ak rsa bsalah sgt2. ak taw ak slh sngka ari tu . ak tau aku salah. aku tau aku slalu slah fham, slalu cemburu buta. tu suma sebab aku sayangkan kau, aku takut kehilangan kau. seriously, I mean it. I mean this. I mean all these words that I’ve just mentioned.

          Yes. Aku sayang kau. aku masih sayangkan kau. aku minta maaf sebab aku delete kau dari facebook ari tu. aku minta maaf jg sbb ak block kau dr fb ari tu. skrg, ak unblock sua kw. tp ak x add kw. ak tkt. ak tkt bla ak add kw, ak tkt kw x approve ak.

         

          ak taw hatimu baek. tp ak ttp tkut jg nti atimu sda berubah bla dgn ak. ak mnta maaf sbb ak mengelak dr kw. jujur ak akui, jauh dlm atiku ak rndu kw sgt2. I longed for eu.

          aku ada soalan ak mw tnya kw klu kta dpt contact blik. “kau masih anggap aku girlfriend mu ka lg ?” yes. that’s my question for eu. I’m gonna ask eu that. seems like ak mcm mw ma kw blik kn? haha. adui. gla bha ak. so dumb. but I’m gonna ask eu jg soalan tuh. x tipu. lambat laun ya, ak akn tnya jg tuh soalan bla kta dpt contact blik.

          aku pun mau ckp dgn kau bnda ne “ aku minta maaf sgt2 sbb mrh dgn kau ari tu. ya, aku tau ak merajuk lma sgt. 4 bulan. bukan tempoh yang singkat. 4 bulan aku merajuk bwa hatiku yg luka ne jauh2 dr kau. tym kau chat ma ak 4 bulan yg lalu pun, ak layan kau maw x maw ja. sbb knapa ? sbb ak mc terkilan dgn kau. ak mc sakit hati. tipula kalau ak ckp ak blh lupa sms yg ak bca d hp mu tu. masih tbayang2 lae d mataku bnda yg ak bca tu. each of it. I still remember those. masih segar d ingatan ku. but skrg ak maw lupakan sda tu. ak xmw pduli sda bnda tu. ya. mngkin ak xkn dpt lupa bnda tu 100% . tapi aku akan cuba. ak akn cuba spaya ak dpt maafkn kw seikhlas hatiku. ak x nafikn yg ak still marah dgn kw lg. tp, apa juga gunanya maw marah kau lama2 kan ? like I told eu before. ak bkn jenis yg suka2 ja tinggalkn org. so, whatever happens. I will stick wit eu no matter wat. smpi la kw yg ckp ‘lets break up’ bru ak akn pergi undur diri.”

          dalam masa 4 bulan ne. mcm2 jd ma ak. ak hangout ma ex-bf ak. ak dpt kwn bru. ak dpt result spm. ak kerja unprofessionally cuz my mom paid me and it’s unofficial workin but I love it. ak hangout ma ex ak pun sbb tym tu ak skit ati ma kw, ak ckp “klu kw blh jln dgn ppuan laen npa x ak ?” tgk bha. ego kn ak. keras kepalanya ak. jahatnya ak dgn kw.

          msti kw t’tnya2 apa motifku delete and block kw d fb. motif ialah I can’t stand viewing ur fb each day in my life. I just can’t. ak tgk fb kw hari2. ak tgk perkembangannya. ak xtw npa. smpi la satu saat ak x than lg, ak trus decide ak delete kw and ak block kw. I’m too upset with  myself. I’m loving someone who already changed me to be better but that someone is not in love with me anymore. that someone is you. that someone is you tahir. yes. he is you. yourself.

          mohd tahir bin bahari, kalau kau baca ne, aku harap kau boleh maafkn aku and we can go back to normal. no heart-feeling. and for xtw kali yang keberapa, AKU MINTA MAAF. mungkin kau akn mrh plk dgn ak sbb I made this public but hey! I’m the type of person who love to go public about my feeling and all. I want the whole world to noe how I feel. specially bout org yg ak syg. and ya! kw mc dlm list org yg ak syg. J

          oh. and this one for eu. it’s a song. taylor swift yg nyanyi. lirik ne ngam sda utk btau ma kw tntang prasaan ak. klu kw ingat , kta gduh bulan disember kn ? mlm ? kn ? and first tym kw nmpak ak nangis pun bln september kn ? birthday kw baru2 ne pun ak xda wish kn? so, this song is about.. eu can say .. about me .. guess what ? saying sorry to eu ..

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night",
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leavin'
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye"

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

I go back to December all the time.
All the time 

bad guy - joo

Being too hot, i hate it

Me who love only you, i hate it

Just like a fool

A sad love song, i hate it

Keeps getting hurt and whimpering

Shutting my lips to keep me from calling you

Ah~ Im so sorry

If i used to cry, but i will not cry again

Oh, please dont let go this hand that holding you

Ah~ Im so sorry for my weak heart

Everytime you get far away, a big questioning whether you will back

This bad guy, you, an uncapable man

Me who living only looking only at one man, only you

Weak girl, good girl

What if he went away, what if he leave

Being too cold, i hate it

Like other people seing me

Oh, i really hate that look in your eyes

Ah~ Im so sorry Oh~

I will do whatever you ask me to

Let's go back like what we used to

Ah~ Im so sorry for im being young

Being easily bruised, torn apart and hurt

This bad guy, you, an uncapable man

Me who living only looking only at one man, only you

Weak girl, good girl

What if he went away, what if he leave

What if you have your pride hurt?

It's okay if only you coming back

Even now, in front of your house, im here alone waiting for you

That's right, i know nothing beside you, i must be a fool, i really am

Born as a woman with only one day to live

Living with only looking to one man

Bad guy, im a fool

What if he went away, what if he leave

irreversible ..

You want to leave but I keep holding your leg
I hang on to your arm that pushes me away
You can’t decide what you want, you just humiliate me
There’s not even an untainted, empty place left, only bad blood flows through my body
With a short breath as always, you walk away so easily

Kill me or love me
One of these two
Even if I’m tired, become exhausted, I beg again, once more
You push me away once more
1 second, 2 seconds, 3 seconds, 4 seconds…
If this is the things are, then I want to die

Lie, don’t lie, don’t lie
I hear everything as a downright lie
I get pushed to the edge
Lie, don’t lie, don’t lie
There is no happy ending to this story
There is no “just let go of you”

“Tick Tick” the moving needle is piercing my heart, it makes me cry
Why did you turn me into this, why did you make this irreversible
Everything you say is a lie and lie
After all, I grab and onto you
To the point where I am unaware of the pain inside me
I fall because I can’t even get broken and crushed anymore 
Only black tears are flowing, it became a knife and got stuck in my ears
Your short breath, and poisonous steps, again…

Kill me or love me
There is only one choice
Even if I’m crying, yelling, begging, pleading, you once more walk away

1 second, 2 seconds, 3 seconds, 4 seconds…
I want to die inside you

Lie, don’t lie, don’t lie
I hear everything as a downright lie, I get pushed to the edge
Lie, don’t lie, don’t lie
There is not happy ending to this story
There is no “just let go of you”
“Tick Tick” the time is once again moving, flowing, its shaking my heart, and shaking me
Your words which run towards the end make me come to this point
Everything you say to me is a lie and lie

bukan diriku ..

Setelah kupahami
Ku bukan yang terbaik
Yang ada di hatimu

Tak dapat kusangsikan
Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku

Kini maafkanlah aku
Bila ku menjadi bisu
Kepada dirimu

Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku berbatas
Tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku

Walau kumasih mencintaimu
Kuharus meninggalkanmu
Kuharus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Kuharus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang lama menyentuhmu
Bukanlah diriku

miss MY EX ! (4th episode)

huuuuuufffffffffffttttttttttttttt ... papa, this is harder than i thought .  where are you now ??

Where are you now

When I need you the most

Why don't you take my hand 

I wanna be close

Help me when i am down

lift me up off the ground

teach me right from wrong

help me to stay strong

Take my hand and walk with me

Show me what to be

I need you to set me free

Where are you now?

Where are you now?

Now that im half grown

Why are we far apart?

i feel so alone

Where are you now?

when nothin's goin right?

where are you now?

i cant see the light

show me what to be

I need you to set me free

I need you to need me

Cant you see me

My heart is half empty

I'm not whole

when you're not with me

I want you here with me

To guide me

hold me and love me now

Where are you now?

Where are you now?

so take my hand and walk with me

show me what to be

i need you to set me free

LAST WORD FOR THIS EPISODE : NEED YOU ...

WHEN WILL I SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN ??

WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH MY HEART AGAIN ??

حبيبي و انت بعيد

My darling when you are far away
Longing for the touch of a hand
Without even a whisper
Cover and put out your hands
As soon as I think of you
You will feel the touch
You say, alone 
And I say, alone
And they are heard as one
My eyes cry for you
Your eyes cry for me
It is one tear
I know you and feel you and I see my eyes in your eyes
As if I was in your embrace
And my eyes have spent many hours crying for you without my sadness or yours

If every soul is in a place
My darling we always have a place that gathers us together
Not time nor man nor fear nor forgetting nor death will stop us

عمرو مصطفى - انا نسيتك (my new obsession)

LISTEN TO THIS .. IT'S A GREAT SONG .. :))

I've forgotten you
That's it
I no longer remember you
I've tired of you
I've forgotten you
I've forgotten how to say the letters of your name that I loved

You've become a page of the past
Your passion has become something ordinary
And no matter how weak my intentions become
I will still tell you I've forgotten you
One time you betrayed me and sold me out
And didn't care about the tears of my eyes
I will tell you 'why am I missing you'
Enough, I've sacrificed so much

The tears of my eyes are over
They no longer kill me and cry
I've forgotten you and you must go away so I can live
I will see girls other than you
And melt again
That's it my heart has become mine
Your place is not my embraces
I'm being cruel just as you were cruel
Not a day did I make you cry
Nor was my heart cruel to you
There will no be getting back together with you
I've left you shall remain

kiss me

(translation of my current playin song in dis blog)

When did this begin, I guess the moment I first saw you
Every 1 minute 1 second, you keep coming onto mind
What are you doing.. Where are you now

Ooh baby

I see this I see that
I do this I do that
You keep coming into my heart, I seemed to have gone crazy..
You do know why my heart is like this.. You do know why I’m feeling like this

Day by day I look at you only and waits for you always
Until now you’re the only one I know and I will love only you
It’s a valuable moment even when I’m loving you
If there is no you, I do not want to do anything at all

Every single day when I open my eyes in the morning, I want to see you
In my present days now, I cannot live if there is no you
I want to hear that one sentence “I love you” though
Every day, I love you..Only you, I love only you, Just the two of us

Ooh baby..

Probably just by imagination, thoughts like ‘You are mine’
Can make my heart pound whole day long
I seemed to have gone crazy
I will run towards you..and confess honestly

Day by day I look at you only and waits for you always
Until now you’re the only one I know and I will love only you
It’s a valuable moment even when I’m loving you
If there is no you, I do not want to do anything at all

Every single day when I open my eyes in the morning, I want to see you
In my present days now, I cannot live if there is no you
I want to hear that one sentence “I love you” though
Every day, I love you..Only you, I love only you, Just the two of us

Struck for words.. Out of breath (out of breath)
Your two hands that is grabbing tightly of my shaking hand
I’m crying already.. Are you gonna confess to me now

Keep watching and guarding me always
If I cry because of you, you must hug me in you tightly
That’s the moment I sincerely wish for
No matter how I think, I won’t be able to believe

Every single day, guard by my side and look upon me only
Because I love you too much, you who treats me as a friend only
Will you say that one sentence that you love me now
Every day, I love you.. You love me only..

Shall we kiss?

nO oNe ....

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that, where else to look for?
A good person like you, with a good heart like you, a gift as great as you
How lucky that I’m the person who will try my hard to protect you, where else to look for?
A happy girl like me, the girl with the happiest smile like me

Your two warm hands gets cold when I’m cold
Your heart that used to be strong becomes sensitive when I’m hurt
Take my hands silently, hold me silently, I’m only wishing for such little comforts
You don’t know my heart that wanted to do more just for you

Call out my heart, free my soul
It always felt like the first time, these remaining days are more than the time that I came to love you

When my greedy heart  gradually search to other directions
When my mind can’t handle whenever my greed grow even more
I know all those reasons that clearly says that you’re here, it’s the only one
I’m always thankful. I could do better as you do

You know, I’m a little bit shy sometimes, you don’t know but you’re burning like the sun, please understand my feelings
Even those boys that appears on TV shows are sparkling, you’re always be the one in my eyes
Hearing you tell me that you love me, I have everything in this world, You & I, You’re so fine, is there someone like you?
I love you Oh, please know it, to me there’s only you, that I stupidly see you as my everything

We arrived on the same road, we’re just the same, how surprising, how grateful, it’s love

jaooooohhhhhh d mateee .... dekaaaaatttttt d aattttttiiiiieeeeeyyyyyy !!!

Sudah lama ku tak bertemu 

aku rindu 
Pikir pikir sudah bertahun tak bertemu kamu
Jadinya kepikiran, ga mau makan
Pengen cepat ketemuan
Jadinya bikin lagu 

lagunya lucu

Lucu lucu kayak kamu..

teehee ~


Jauh dimata dekat dihati
Meski jauh kau slalu di hati
Jauh dimata dekat dihati
Ku selalu ada untukmu
Jauh dimata dekat dihati
Dihatiku cuma ada kamu
Cuz i luv u
Cuz i miss u

TEEHEEE ~~~ (^_^) v

i'm leavin ..

You're so cheap and this isn't like you
I can't get used to it now, It makes me dizzy, why
Who's breaking up with who
You're breaking up with me
Think it over before you say it, yeah

A guy that used to follow me around, a very decent guy
I let everything go for you alone
Who's breaking up with who
You're breaking up with me
Try living without me, yeah

Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
Don't try to console me
Move this hand, we're strangers now

Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand

I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

Just say what you gotta say
How can you be uncool to the very end?
Fiancé? Beyonce
I'm walkin' out of destiny
Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That's my way
I gave it my all, so I don't have regrets

Pretending like you're more sad
Pretending you're cool to the end
All you do is act a fool
You ain't shit without your crew
I don't have time, I gotta go
So long, good bye, adios
I don't want to see your ugly face again no more