happy independence day malaysia !!!

merdeka!!!!
ahahah ... suma org ble ckp bg2 .. tp sbnarnya dorg blum merdeka laek .. hati masih dijajah ..
huuu... lau x dijajah pown .. masih laek dibebankan dgn bbrapa perkara .. mcm ak ... mac laek dibebani dgn SPM !!!  owh no !!!

my man ....

I, who wants you to throw away that woman in your heart,
begin to hate myself because I know I'll just get hurt
Even though I know, I wonder why I do this to myself
I wait for you,
believing that you'll look my way at least once

Now, whenever I miss you, I'm going to courageously look for you
I'm not going to hold back the words that I want to say
Not crossing the line of awkwardness, I'm going to kiss you every day
I know all this might sound funny but... It's because you're my man

I want to protect you
so that your past love doesn't throw you away
I'll become happiness
so that you won't get tired of separation

I'm going to have you like me
like the way that I was reborn in you
So that everyone around you likes me,
I'm going to make people say that you've met a good woman
I know all this might sound funny but... It's because you're my man

Is all this my selfishness? Is it just that? Show me your heart...

Now, whenever I miss you, I'm going to courageously look for you
I'm not going to hold back the words that I want to say
Not crossing the line of awkwardness, I'm going to kiss you every day
It can't be anyone else but you
because we're meant to be...

love ... huh .. it's all lies ...

On the road we used to walk on
You were so sweet
Even now, I smile
And it’s like I’m standing again

Walking where we used to keep pace
Suddenly, my lonely steps alone
Feel the tears flowing down like rain
Because we’re now over

Love, what is it
My heart hurts as if it were dying
I was happy
I was.

I loved you so much
Why did we have to part?
It’s all lies…all lies…
Forever, such talk is all lies

I still see other people
Trying to recreate the love we had shared
Laughing, chatting, hugging
But our lips don’t meet

We do everything, he’s really nice
He boasts about me to other people
But now I’m no longer a person
Already, that can’t be…

That’s how all people live
Even when we break up hundreds of times, it’s still such a punishment
There is no comfort

I loved you so much
Why did we have to part?
It’s all lies…all lies…
Forever, such talk is all lies

Just like a fool
Like this, I’m hurt again and again
Still, when I love, the sad breakup
Will come again

I don’t want to be hurt anymore
I don’t want to believe in love anymore
Again, I’m alone, trying not to be afraid

Love, what is it
My heart hurts as if it were dying
I was happy
I was.

From the moment we started to love
To the moment we you left
I want to forget it all…forget it all
Just like in the beginning, when I didn’t know…

love is all lies ...

우 리가 함께 걷던 길에 너무도 다정했던 그대가
아직 그대로 미소 지으며 서 있을 것만 같아요
둘이 발맞춰 걷던 길위에 어느 새 내 쓸쓸한 걸음만 혼자
비처럼 내리는 눈물을 맞고 있죠 이젠 우린 끝인가요

사 랑 도대체 그게 뭔데 이렇게 죽을 것처럼 맘이 아픈데
왜 날 울리는데 행복했었는데 그랬는데
나를 참 사랑해줬었는데 우리가 왜 헤어져야 해
다 거짓말 다 거짓말 영원하단 말은 모두 거짓말

아직은 다른 사람 만나 우리가 사랑했던 것처럼
웃 고 떠들고 안아주고 또 입맞춤 하지 말아요
내 모든걸 다 예뻐해주고 사람들에게 내 자랑 해주던
이제부터 그대 내 사람 아니라고 벌써 그러면 안돼요

사람 사는 일이 다 그런 거라고 이별 할때마다 수백 번도 더 했던 말버릇 이제는 위로도 되질 않죠
나를 참 사랑해줬었는데 우리가 왜 헤어져야 해
다 거짓말다 거짓말 영원하단 말은 모두 거짓말

바보같은 나는 또 사랑을 슬픈 이별을 반복하게 되겠죠
더 이상 아프지 않게 사랑 믿지 않을래요
다시는 혼자가 두렵지 않게 그대 왜 날

사랑 도대체 그게 뭔데 이렇게 죽을 것처럼 맘이 아픈데
왜 날 울리는데 행복했었는데 그랬는데

우리 사랑했던 그때부터 그대 떠나던 순간까지

다 잊을래 다 잊을래 처음부터 그냥 없던 것처럼

unforgettable ..

27 august 2010

could be an unforgettable date for me .. for the first time ever in my life , ak b'buka posa ngan kwn2 ak .. my besties ..
owwhhhh ... wat a gud day and a gud tyme i had ...
best gler ... thanx to everyone ...
dr pkerja restoran , tuan punya restoran , anak tuan punya restoran , wife tuan punya restoran , kawan2 ak .. suma larr ...
thanx sesangat .. mknn dah la sedap gler .. tmbh lg dgn keceriaan dan sebagainya .. huh .. tambah hepi ak ...
thanx sesangat ...

next planning ....

- steamboat
- rayear b'sama
- picnic
- SPM!!!!!
- vacation ..
- PLKN baby!!!

ucapan terima anugerah ak ari tuh pas gaduh ngan angah .. huhu ... haru glerr uollzz ..

22 august 2010

ak rilek ja skrg ne . ak xkn menyesali pa yg t'jd antra ak & angah . sbb ak taw . bnda ne xkn b'than lma . smakin ari smakin ak rsa ak smkin muak dgn drama yg dea wat . dan ak taw . ak mc ada c thr . td sda angah kol , ak kol c thr . dgn slamba ja kmi mc ble ketawa & mrncg msa dpn kmi . mgkn law ak xda c thr / c thr emo jgk tem 2 . mgkn ak pun emo jgk skrg . tq thr sbb lyn ak dgn pnuh kc syg . sntiasa bri spnuh kepercayaan & kebebasan kat ak . c angah da mnta maaf . ak mls mau ckp pa sbb lau ak ckp x jgk ak d dgr . ak biarkn ja suma . pa pun ak b'trima kc kat kaw angah sbb wat ak lbih kebal dr yg sblumnya . & skrg sptinya xda pa yg blh pengaruhi ak . ak btrima kc kpd suma yg support ak slama ne x kira ssh snang . ak mc ble tsnyum & bgmbra dgn pa yg blaku kat ak krna kmu . tq sgt2 .

zaman dahulu kala ...

21 august 2010

ak ne jenis perempuan yg mcm mna jgk??? hurmm .. ak sndri pun x taw ..
ak pkir .. ak ne perempuan yg steady ja .. x d pduli olh kapel pown x kesah ..
tp .. tanggapan ku yg ak jdkn anggapn 2 mcm slh ja tau .. x pham ak ..
hurmm .. cmana jgk ak ne sbnrnya ??

mungkin ak ne jenis perempuan yg mau d perhati ja 24/7 bha kn...
mau d msej slalu .. asal on9 ..d tegur ..d bwk chat ..
slalu d komen2 d status .. write d wall .. komen2 d pic ..
d syg2 .. d perhati slalu .. d pntgkn ..ak ja pntg ..ak ja la sumanya ..
hurmm ..hahaha .. i tend to get annoyed easily bla ak nmpk prmpuan yg mau slalu d c bg2 ja 24/7 ..
tp .. akhirnya ..ak jdi perempuan 2 suda .. yg penah ak ejek2 dlu ..
owhhh ...

juz so u to noe ...

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tryin my best not to cry,,,

u can't even...u don't even know how to love me..stop sayin dat u love me..u can't even learn how to love me...so BACK OFF!!u juz makin me hurt..torn me apart..dat's wat u did to me..

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ko sndri pun x dpt..ko sndri xtaw cmna syg ak..b'hnti la ckp ko syg ak..ko lngsung x blh bljar utk syg ak..BERUNDURLAH..ko cma skiti ak..lukai ak..itu ja yg ko buat kat ak..

wish act like a boy

Pull up your pants, just like him
Take out the trash, just like him
Getting your cash like him, fast like him
Girl you wanna act like he did

I'm talking 'bout, security codes on everything
On vibrate so your phone don't ever ring
A foreign account
And another one he don?t know about

Wish we could switch up the roles and I could be that
Tell you I love you but when you call, I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me, like 'Where you be at?'
'Cuz I'm out, four in the morning on the corner rolling doing my own thing

What if I had a thing on the side, made you cry
Would the rules change up or would they still apply
If I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Girl go ahead and be just like him
Go run the streets just like him
Go home missin' sleep like them, creep like them
Front wif your friends, act hard when you with them like him

Keep a straight face when you tell a lie
Always keep an air tight alibi
Keep it hid in the dark
What he don?t know won't break his heart

Wish we could switch up the roles and I could be that
Tell you I love you but when you call, I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me, like 'Where you be at?'
'Cuz I'm out, four in the morning on the corner rolling doing my own thing

If I was always gone, hit the sun getting home
Told you I was with my crew when I knew it wasn?t true
If I act like you, walked a mile off in your shoes
Messing with your head again, dose of your own medicine


If I paged you, would you like that?
Had friends, would you like that?
With a car, would you like that?
Hell nah, you wouldn?t like that, no

What if I made you cry, would they still apply?
What if I, if I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Can't handle that?

warmness on the soul..

Your eyes watching every move I make
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side
You're the one, and in you I confide

And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind
You've been there from the start for me
And your loves always been true as can be
I give my heart to you
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you

And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind
You've been there from the start for me
And your loves always been true as can be
I give my heart to you
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you

I give my heart to you
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you

act like nothing is wrong

Am I supposed to laugh...
as if nothing's wrong
Each day passes by...
as if nothing's wrong

Hey, I haven't called you in awile.
I just called to say i'm sorry,
and for that I'm even more sorry
Honestly,I don't have anything to say,
So I'm just babbling
I was wondering how you have benn
"What do you want?You're drunk again aren't you?"
I don't want to hear it again
so i try hard to sound okay
You've become mute on the other side
Because of the random things i'm saying

What's so great about my crooked pride
(I want to run to you but still...)
It's so hard,but i try to act cool,
as if nothing's wrong
(If I could get rid of this affection
If I could get rid of this hatred)
Ma dear do you know you're all i have
I realized too late i'm sorry ma boo...

Am I supposed to laugh...
as if nothing's wrong
Each day passes by...
as if nothing's wrong

As if nothing's wrong
As if nothing's going on...
Memories of you i once traied to erase
Are starting to grow on me.

I need you,come back
I want to tell you truthfully
My heart's heavy fallin
Where are you
I can never forget our first date(Why?)
Your birthday is still marked on my calendar
Oh no I don't believe
People are saying my laughter has died
There was a familiarity like long lost friends
We used to talk on the phone all night
How we have so many things to say back then
How are you doing
The promises I weren't able to
keep still clings to my heart
I worry about you a lot
I wonder if you stay awake at night like I do
and i feel sorry once again

You said it yourself
"You're too mean"
What's the problem?
I'm still trying to figure things out
Like an idiot my regrets came too late
(Where you at?)
If you leave what am i supposed to do?

Am I supposed to laugh...
as if nothing's wrong
Each day passes by...
as if nothing's wrong

As if nothing's wrong
As if nothing's going on...
Memories of you i once tried to erase
Are starting to grow on me.
You're not different from the other guys
Why are you talking back everything you said before
Your future was more important to you
I did everything your way.
What do you want from me now?

If i say it I'll be the bad guy.
Why don't you just call me a liar
I'll hang up now and pretend I didn't hear that

You don't know the nights
I've spend contemplating
You're crying because I say "Goodbye"
This song ïsn't even half of my sorrow..

pendam...biar...let it be...

bila kau tak tahan..

jangan luah...pendam..

pendam...

pendam sehingga kau gila..

pendam sehingga kau mati....

biarkan....

pendam saja semua....

tiada yang tahu...

tiada yang peduli...

tiada yang mahu dengar...

biarkanlah saja..

tiada siapapun yang mahu tahu...

tiada siapapun yang mahu ambil tahu...

biarkan otak tidak boleh cerna...

daripada orang lain tak sudi cernakan...

lebih baik kau sendiri yang indigestion...

eMo mE.... (jilid 1)

akhirnya aku sedar..

sedar selama ini..

sedar akan kewujudan yang selama ini mencari perhatian..

tidak dipeduli...

dan akhirnya...

aku sedar...

aku rela..

rela untuk mengundurkan diri..

rela mengundurkan diri kerana aku lebih berhak...

lebih berhak merasa kedukaan berbanding kesukaan..

it is better I back off...

daripada merasakan perasaan dipinggirkan...

aku sengaja menyendiri daripada aku merasa diketepikan...

aku mendekat, mereka menjauh..

mereka tidak peduli, mereka tidak mengendahkan..

aku menjauh, mereka menjauh..

aku tak peduli, mereka tak peduli..

saling tak peduli, tidak mengapa..

aku masih boleh bertahan..

aku masih boleh terus hidup..

ingin berkongsi rasa..

tidak terdengarkan...

tidak terendahkan...

tidak dipedulikan..

akhirnya...

aku simpan semua rasa..

aku tanggung semua beban..

aku rasa semua sendiri..

tangis sendiri..

" tahanlah sendiri sayang...

tanggunglah sendiri sayang...

tiada siapa yang sudi

berkongsi rasa denganmu..

kau harus tahu hakikat di dunia ini..

tiada siapa yang ingin berkongsi..

tiada siapa yang sudi untuk berbagi rasa..

kita hidup sendirian...

sehinggalah kita mati

kita harus berdikari...

untuk tanggung segalanya bersendirian

sedarlah sayang...

hidup memang begini..

inilah lumrahnya..

kau harus faham dan tahu..

kau kena tanggung semua rasa...

sehinggalah satu saat nanti...

kau tidak dapat merasa semuanya..

sehingga kau menutup matamu

sendirian....."