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Salahkah aku..

Bila aku mengadu dengan orang yang aku sayang?

Mengadu dengan orang yang pernah kata “whatever happens I’ll be beside you”

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Aku tiada siapa untuk berkongsi cerita

Jadi apa salahnya aku bercerita dengan kau

Sedangkan kau yang beria mahu dengar dan tahu tentang aku

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Kau harus tahu ini

Perkara ini penting untuk kau jadikan nota hidup selama dengan aku

Aku tidak akan open up stories dengan sebarang orang

Jika kau dengar cerita hidupku hatta hal remeh temeh sekalipun

Kau istimewa

Ingat!

KAU ISTIMEWA

The Relationship Of Hygiene/Cleanliness With Our Personality..

KEBERSIHAN DAN CARA KITA HIDUP ITU MENGGAMBARKAN PERSONALITI KITA. OR MORE TO BE EXACT IS ON HOW YOU HANDLE  YOUR ROOM AND THE WASHROOM. KENAPA?

Sebab bagi ak itu la cara nya kau mahu tngok orang tu pembersih, organised or vice versa.

Dan di situ jugak lah cara kita boleh nilai orang sebenar-benarnya whether kau mahu ckp dea cantik atau tidak. Sebab bagi aku orang yang betul2 cantik ialah orang yang jaga kebersihan no matter how busy they are. It’s about hygiene!

And this is specially for women ! sebab kalau lelaki tu x ksah sgt laa.. tapi kalau perempuan..huh!! kalau kau pengotor cewek, xda guna kau ouhh..bikin jatuh saham!!bikin jatuh semua la!!xda guna kau cantik kalau kau pengotor pemalas!!bagus mati sak la!! MENYUSAHKAN ORANG JA!

Ak xtau la klu mmg ada satu family yg pengotor tu…eerrgghhh…mcm mna la dorg hdup tu..euuhhh..msti smua kotor kan..HOW DO THEY LIVE??OMYGODD..JUST CAN’T IMAGINE..wel yes I think I can..all their furnitures are so full with dirt..bhabuk..the sofa the bantal and everything like pillows and such..msti bau hapak kan..eeuuhhhh…and the bedrooms will be like..ohmyyy…imagine this : once u open the door, here we go ; the smell of the mattress,pillows,blankets,teddies and their own smell of body which I can say is not that really got that perfume material..or to be more exact : BAU BADAN! Yes!! And plus the view ; nothing is organized. Pillows here and there..the baju and all..shit there’s no space..the floor of course full with dirt and if it’s a girl..i’m tellin ya..msti byk strands of hair here and there on the floor..

Baru ckp psl bilik tidur..blm lg psl bathroom,kitchen, living room..ohmyy..just can’t imagine how they live..lain lg psl baju yg x d cuci..the dishes and such..shit so fuckin dirty dude..

Guys..i tell ya..if u really need a woman who can take care of your entire life..find the one who keep on scrubbing the bathroom floor and the jamban like crazy..find the one who can take care of the house VERY WELL..i’m telling you..SERIOUSLY..find that bitch who can take care of you and the entire board of the house hygienically..I’M SERIOUS DUDE..

CLEANLINESS IS A FUCKIN SERIOUS THING..jgn ckp psl hygiene cuz I learn about all these microbes and such..even our T-zone of face(bhgian dahi dan hidung) is full of bacteria..or I can say tmpt yg pling sesuai utk dorg hdup dgn aman dan bhgia..you’ve got to be careful..take care of ur body hygiene AND YOUR ENVIRONMENT..

I mean..mcm mna org tu blh hdup klu semua bnda x bersih..kotor..x teratur..ak x blh tu hdp bgtu..mngkin blh laa… utk yg x teratur tu cuz ak pun kdg x teratur jgk..but since I live alone here without my mom or my brother..THANKFULLY ak jd pembersih and teratur(xda la that teratur but yeahh..i can manage my life and my place well)..I’m happy and bersyukur sgt2 sbb my mom taught me how to live the clean way..

Seriously..xda makna k kau hdup klu kau pengotor and pemalas..that is just DOUBLE THE MORON OF YOU! I just don’t know why..why u decide and choose to live that way..my god..tolonglaa…

Lain lg cerita klu yg jenis after doing their business in the toilet..THEY DON’T FLUSH!!!OH MY GOD!!!WHAT KIND OF A PERSON ARE YOU, WHORE??!!!! I’m asking you..do you really clean ur v-area??cuz u don’t flush!if u clean that area u must’ve flush that jamban too..

Aku sangat sangat sangat x faham kalau org tu hari2 do their laundry but don’t take care of their self-hygiene or their own environment clean…AT LEAST CLEAN..x hygiene its okay..BUT JUST CLEAN..TAKE CARE THE CLEANLINESS OF UR PLACE SERIOUSLY..

AND REMEMBER BITCHES…

"SLUT” WAS ORIGINALLY A SLANG FOR WOMEN WHO DIDN’T KEEP THEIR ROOMS CLEAN.. J

SO..KLU X KEEP ROOM CLEAN.. BLH BYGKN LA KAN TOILET MCM MNA..HEWW~~~

WE ARE BOSSBITCHES WITH ATTITUDES..NOT A SLUT !! SO BE CIVILISED.. J

This Semester Has Begun..

Haiii..assalamualaikum..

New semester has begun..last semester was :

Academically : GREAT!!!ALHAMDULILLAH.. J

Personally : Not so good..Alhamdulillah.. :’)

But all I can say is I thank and grateful for all that..God has taught me on how to live on my own..He taught me that I shouldn’t just trust and giving chance to people whom already hurt me mentally..

He showed me His power..all the thing that he mention in the holy Quran is Right! I keep on believing on Him more and more.. I want to share what is that He showed me..

He once said that and it sounds like this “those who don’t perform their prayer for Subuh and Isyak’ are MUNAFIKIN..”

Damn He is right.. I saw that person..and of course He keep on making me giving my endless gratitude towards Him..

I just don’t care of what whores are talkin bad about me..i just don’t really care..

Okayyyyy..forget about that last semester story..now let me tell ya’ll about this semester..

Actually..i’m not ready yet for this semester but..whatever..challenge accepted! Life is not a thrill without a challenge or a force of doing something..so I started this semester..

With 5 FST subjects and 1 Statistic subject! 20 credit hour.. I just can’t let another 3 credit hour in for Organic Chemistry or Calculus I ..

So I took a brave decision to take those 2 subject in my final year..and I hope I can make this through..with all this subject and graduate ON TIME!! Ameen …. *finger’s crossed*

Eventhough I got no mood for all this..but I will find the mood and make the mood..so it started with this blog drafting.. J hewhew~

Back In Touch I

Hye assalamualaikum..

So for the post for this time .. ntah la .. ak sbnrnya xda idea sgt..so I was thinking bout telling u the basic  10 things about me .. I think .. but before that .. ak mau crita .. since ak ada mood mau crita ne .. psl ak pnya gay bestie.. actually after ak abs final ari tu .. ak sort of lost contact dgn dea .. after madir sibuk tuduh ak sama dea tu kapel .. haha .. so ..kami lost contact laa ..

But then recently I’ve just got a news from him.. saying that he’s doing good, jobless, waiting for graduate/convocation ceremony.. just helping his parents buat stor dkt rumahnya .. haha ..

And he said that my life is sengsara .. haha .. so honest .. u noe wat .. sbb itu la ak ska kwn dgn dea .. why dea ckp life ak sengsara ?? bcuz kmi mcm buat flashback la .. mcm trying to catching up things yg kmi tlepas share … sort of like that laa.. so ak crita la sma dea .. and he as usual .. dgr ja and bg pendapat nya yg sejujur-jujurnya ..

And yeah .. when I shared stories with him I feel safe enough, comfortable, grateful sbb ALLAH kurniakn kwn sbaik dea.. :’) its not that ak x feel safe and comfortable and grateful bla ak dgn c madir .. tp kwn dgn husband lain u noe..

When it comes to gaybestfriend and your husband..of course both of them are the best but vote will be more dkt gaybestfriend bcuz they sense a lot.. unlike husbands.. gay bestfriend aware sgt2 aware tntg their partner-in-crime..they really care about their girlfriend’s feeling.. u know.. hmm .. hard to explain laa .. bkn mau kc mnang dea ka apa .. tp .. u noe what .. why don’t you try .. why don’t you try to have a gay-bestfriend so kamu blh judge then..and u can faham then..

And since I got back in touch with him .. he doesn’t even change a bit..still treat me the same mcm hari pertama kami kenal.. still care,still funny, and of course..still gay.. haha .. tension brabis tu org sma ak sbb ak pnggil dea gay..

Malar dea ckp “ak bukan gay bhaa..ak suka pmpuan bhaaa” hahah .. sorry la bro.. u are more like gay to me .. not ur appearance or what but.. how u treat me tu yg buat kau dpt pengiktirafan terhormat dr aku..u are the second person on earth yg ak pnah panggil bgtu..

My New Obsession~~~

Hye assalamualaikum ..

This time mau kongsi pasal my new obsession which the Singaporean Youtube hits ; MunahHirzi !

Okay .. so .. how do I know them ? well .. I was back at Sabah. Tawau to be exact raya baru2 ne .. so I met my crazy brothers la kan .. so my old brother tu yg kenalkn ak dgn dorg nih .. first vid ak tgk from them is for the bulan bahasa 2012 . so lapuk kan . so ketinggalan zaman kan . but yeah whatever. Yg pntg aku suka . and ak just tgk ja la . and tba2 ja bnda tu jd trending between kami adik bradik . haha .

Which videos u ask ? emm . yg “sental lg!sental lg!x lawa tu x lawa je! xtau ke aku ni makcik tua nak duduk! Dah la duduk kat reserved seating!” haha . and yeah . ak hafal most of it ! from the videos dr bulan bahasa 2012 dorg, epic minahs #3, single ladies parody and run the world parody.

Okay . msti korg tnya apa ke bendanya dorg ni. So I google bout them(cuz I don’t believe my brother said yg dorg ni kononnya exchange student dr Singapore) and gooogle said dorg ne start jd popular tym dorg upload vid dorg about their 10 Dares. So the story goes on. Nak tau lagi ? GOOGLE LAHH!! Banyak cantek kau nak aku crita smua! Kau hengat semua benda yang kau nak akan dtg bgolek tanpa usaha ke? Jangan nak mimpi! Haha..

Lupa nak ckp yg Munah and Hirzi are bestfriend yg unseparable. I envy them!!! and dorg ada Hubab and Nadiah jgkkk :)

So..now.. ak teramat-amatlah obsess dgn dorg ni .. I search about them more and I follow them dkt instagram and like them on Facebook..stakat ni, tu je lah yang sempat..nanti mau subscribe dorg punya Youtube channel and follow dorg dkt Twitter plk..hewhew~~

So here are some photos of them..

And you know what ??? I LOVE THEM SO MUCHHHHH!!!!!!!

so .. don't forget to watch their super-creative-admiring work and their super spontaneous and humorous act in Youtube channel , follow them on Twitter, like them in Facebook and follow lah jgk kat Instagram klu dah obses mcm aku .. hewhew~~ oh and yeahh .. and dorg buat their 10 dares tu smpi international okayy .. they even went to MALAYSIA!!  :D *nampak x dah gilakn dorg sgt..haha*

Aku Akan Terus Bertahan.. :')

Kau lukai hati dan perasaan ini..

Tapi entah mengapa aku masih mampu memberikan maaf padamu..

Mungkin kerana cinta kepadamu tulus dari dasar hatiku..

Mungkin kerana aku berharap kau dapat mengerti cintaku..

Lihat aku di sini bertahan walau kau sering menyakiti..

Hingga air mataku tak dapat menitis dan habis terurai..

Meski kau terus sakiti aku..

Cinta ini akan selalu memaafkan..

Dan aku percaya nanti engkau akan mengerti bila cintaku takkan mati..

Nobody Realize About My Existence

Haiii assalamualaikum… hahah.. lama x post kan..bz bha .. aii .. kununn .. hmm .. teda masa mau urus ne blog bbrapa weeks ne .. sbb ada blog baru yg kena urus .. hihi ..

Hmm .. for this time being .. ada la jg bbrapa update yg x smpat mau bgtau .. life routine changes a bit .. not so gradually but change juga la .. frequency ke library mbuat kerja dan research tu bertambah .. so .. emm .. yaa .. ak slalu la sda ke library .. slalu bertapa d ctu utk buat keja .. sbb my schedule for this semester x brapa pack except for Thursday so I think its better if that kekosongan and ke-free-an itu ak isi utk bertapa d dlm library dan buat research utk assignment dan kerja2 lain yg lebih patut .. hmm .. agak rajin jg la .. alhamdulillah .. hokhik..

Oke .. that was first .. enough la .. and lets go to the second one and the byk2 one .. well u know .. crita common laa .. bashing people here and there with my bestie .. haa my bestie skrg change a lot ! now she’s like more aggressive laa .. bila dea x ska dea akan straight forward says that dea x ska .. dea x mcm yg tym sem 1 ak kenal who is more diam and diam and diam .. she’s no longer that girl yg kau blh pijak sesuka hati .. she’s changed since last sem .. all thanks to that incident la yg buatkn dea semakin tegak berdiri .. hahah .. I like her whether she’s cool mcm tym part one or dea yg skrg .. ak x ksah ..

Ak mau crita satu la .. since ak dgn bestie slalu bdua ja dan bgerak ke mana mmg akn bsama specially when it comes about class ..and ak x brapa mau bgaul sgt pun dgn siapa2 sbb “less friend less stress and less shit” so yeah .. and that is fuckin TRUE man !! less shit .. but still annoyed dgn org sekeliling yg lack of kesedaran .. hmm .. hairan la jg kann.. pandai2 smua tp bgtu .. hmm .. ntah la .. malas mau ckp .. mnyinggungkn hati then trus blh jadi emo .. hahah ..

Oke so here’s the thing .. since ak slalu bdua ja and kurang bgaul .. so this sem I found out that I am invisible.. whether ak dlm kelas or not.. people won’t even recognize me .. haha .. so true .. I like that fact but.. it’s kinda hurt juga la bla ari tu ada classmate ne tnya .. so dialog dea mcm ni ..

        Classmate : diba dah ambk BCM blm ?

        Me : dah .. dah ambk dah last sem .. in fact kte ambk smua subjek part 2 last sem .. sma2 ngan               korg..skali kan dgn yg repeat tu .. ambk smua skali .. tp kena ambk OC lg skali laaa~ L

        Classmate : oh yee .. dah ambik OC ?

        Me : kena ambk lg skaliii

        Classmate : oh ye ?? klu nnti ambk OC ambk la dgn miss **** .. dea ajar ktorg last sem .. oke la                       dgn dia.. best ..

        Me  : haa.. tauu .. last sem kan kte satu kelas ..

        Classmate : oh yeke ? diba ade ek ?

        Me : hmm..ade laaa..

        Classmate : oooo … 

Faham tak apa yg ak nak sampai kan kat cni ??? nampak tak ?? and after that I said to my bestie “omg!!so slama ni dorg mmg x pnah sedar la yg aku slama ni satu kelas ngan korg??!!!mann!!!so ape la guna aku dok present psl reaction dkat lab BCM last sem kat dorg ??!!! dorg x nampak ehh???!!!omg!!seriously mannnnnn!!!” and my bestie was just like “ntah laa dorg tuu”

TO BE CONTINUED .. :')

Hanya Aku

Bersama janji kau sentuh rasa percaya
Hangat dinginmu mengundang rindu kecewa
Hanya aku dihuni sepi rasa kasihmu

Hanya ku yang mencari
Rembulan masih ada
Mungkin seketika
Walau ku bahagia mengejar bayanganmu
Tak mungkin ku beroleh saat indah bersamamu
Hanya aku
Apakah mungkin berulang janji setia
Apa kan kekal ataupun menyambut duka
Dan dirimu di janji Sang Sempurna
Dan kecewa kini dipulih rasa kasihmu
Dihuni rasa rindu
Dingin rasa kasihmu
Bagai bintang bersemi
Rindu janji bicara
Kekal selamanya
Walau sekadar mimpi
Tak pernah ku peduli
Selamanya kan ku pasti merindui dirimu
Hanya aku ..

Maybe

Didn't you wanna hear
the sound of all the places we could go?
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know?
It's a cold, hard road when you wake up,
and I don't think that I have the strength
to let you go.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

There goes my ring,
it might as well have been shattered.
And I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered.
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long.
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong.


And someday, I promise I'll be gone.
And someday, I might even sing this song to you.
I might even sing this song to you.
To you, to you, to you...
And I was crying alone tonight,
and I was wasting all of my life
just thinking of you.
So just come back,
we'll make it better.
So just come back,
I'll make it better than it ever was.

uL & the babiesS !

Ak ada kawan baru ! ooppss !! correction ! ak ada bestie baru ! my group baru is ....

BrothArs and siSTARs !

Atau slalu d pnggil

UL2 and UL2 babies !!

UL2 ne yg Brothers .. lelaki .. why UL2 ?? sbb nma dorg d blkg msti ada UL blkg dea .. dorg ne mula2 ada 4 org ja .. famie, mirin, jirul, sharul ... skalinya msuk 3 org .. fikhri , mac , KG .. dorg 3 org ne xda UL blkg dorg .. skalinya UL2 yg 4 ne baek la ltak UL blkg nma dorg .. fikhri baek punya nma d kc nma fakhrul ! machairey jd machairul ..hafizzie aka KG d kc jd kjuL ..  ahahahah !!! gla la .. msti kmu tnya kn npa tu famie and mirin xda pun UL blkg dorg .. ada.. kmu ja yg x nmpk .. cba tgk btul2 .. ada tu UL blkg nya ..

Hah ? x nmpk lagi ? aisshh .. mmg pndek la umur kmu ne .. ahhaa .. cni ak c tnjuk ! urgh . tu pun x blh nmpk.

Famie = abdul Rashid

Mirin = khairulamirin

Nah .. tu ada UL .. kan kan kan ?? heheh ... and .. that is why they are called the UL2 .. ada 7 org suma : famie, mirin, sharul, jirul, fakhrul, mac , KG ! 6 suma kn ? heheh ..

Now ! lemme story bout siSTARs ! my siSTARs ! J

siSTARs ne ada 4 org ja .. Erica, ainatul, miera, dieybha .. kmi ne .. bkn mw bangga dri la .. kmi ne UL2 babies .. hihi .. stands for kesayangan UL2 .. 4 of the UL2 ada partner d siSTARs.. mirin, jirul, famie and fakhrul ! heheh ... UL2 cares about siSTARs ! ea ka ? care ka ? care ka ea ? hahah .. that’s why la nma UL2 babies ne wujud .. huhu ...

best gla dgn dorg ne .. one thing yg mmg significant dgn kmi ada lah .. kmi akan sentiasa bersama x kira kemana .. kami ke tandas b’sama , bljr, mkn, tdur, and so on .. we will stay up till morning together .. we share everything .. we cry together , we laugh together , pnat together .. alah ! yg pntg sumanya la together bha ..

ne ak upload pic utk tatapan korg ..

bkn snang ne ak mw ltak gmbr dlm blog ne (of course bcoz of smthg shitx yg pnah jd dlu .but i upload it anyway ..so bullshitters , mind to copy my freakin fantastic photos so that you can use as a toilet paper !)

 

terima kasih 'K.A.W.A.N'

serius la ak ckp . ak x blh mw maen kias2 bha . klu ak mw ckp , ak ckp ja trus . mnta maaf klu kmu trasa . tp trus trg ak ckp . buat masa ini, ak anggap kmu ne kwn xda gna !
sanggup kmu kn tgk kwn ssh bgni . snang2 kw lpas tgn gni . kw x sdar ka kerugian ngan malu yg kmi tpksa tanggung . oke . mgkin bukan kami . tp DEA . kmu x sdar ka perbuatan kmu yg SANGAT la BERTANGGUNGJAWAB dan BERTAMADUN ini membawa kepada 1000 'keuntungan' kpd kwn kmu . heissh ! pnat kias .
cni la . maen straight 4ward seja la ..

kau memang tiada guna ! shit kw bha ! sial ! x penah2 ak jmpa org mcm kw ! kimak kw bha ! kw mmg btul2 la manusia pling manank sial nya d dunia ! arrgghh ! sakit atiku ma kw bha !

bgni la kwn .... mmg bgni caranya klu bkwan .. okeoke ! bgni kn cranya kta bkwan . oke ! pham sua ak rntak mu . aku ikut caramu . oke kawan .

i'm killin eu slowly .

Hatred comes from the heart; contempt from the head; & neither feeling is quite within our control.

PENJELASAN !

penjelasan untuk beberapa hal antara aku dan org laen .

Adibah Adrianna & SD

nothing serious really . have you watched the movie “No Strings Attached” ? kmi mcm tu . mnggunakn ssama sndri utk kpntgan masing2 . plus, ak snang bla dgn dea . it’s like magic . hilang prob ku . he knows how to make me laugh . right when I want to slap him for his naughtyness, he make me laugh and feel like want to make the moment last forever . I never fell in love with him . aku juz suka dengan dea . suka hangout. and yes! panggilan kmi mcm couple. but, we’re not. and I don’t know if we are. nanti la aku tnya dea ya apa sebenarnya kami ne. hehe .

Adibah Adrianna & Scooterist Madyer

xda pa2 jg. kawan2 ja. kenal bulan January. but then, friendship kmi hancur lebur bln lalu. means on April. aku pun xtw apa punca sebenarnya persahabatan kami hancur lebur. aku x penah harap bnda ne jd. dea kata dea jealous la ma BossQue Paling Poyo la, x blh trima la hubunganku dgn SD . hey nigga ! kau apaku ouh mw jeles and x blh trima apa2 yg aku buat ne ??!!! urrgghh ! fuckin nigga ! napa aku panggil kau nigga ne ? cuz I feel I want to ! tension gla aku dgn kau ne . xpa. aku redha jg dgn apa yg jadi dgn persahabatan kita ne. aku harap kau bahagia la dgn semua yg kau buat. carik la keja bgus2 . kau jg yg snang klu kau ada keja, byk duit. mcm SD , he’s improving. xkn slamanya mak bapak kta tanggung dri kta.

relationship d fb ? ya. mmg ada relationship d fb. dlu. Engaged . tp semua tu main2 ja. nick kmi : papa-baby. xda pa2 jg tu. nothing happen. JUST FRIENDS ! USED TO BE friends !

Adibah Adrianna & Putra Saiko

dea..dea..dea..apa ya? an ex ? a hubby ? dunno. kwn biasa ja kali. aku pun xtw. we used to be together. and those time are the sweetest time. he loves me really. but something happened and I can’t accept it. aku menghilangkan diri dari dia buat 4 bulan. aku betul2 x blh accept apa yg jd. betul la katanya, bla kta syg org tu, jgn syg dea spenuh hati, simpan sedikit kebencian agar bila nanti sesuatu jadi, kta xkn kecewa.. dan sekarang, aku kembali menunjukkan diriku sendiri. I unblock, he add. we’re friend back on Facebook. and the rest is history.. aku sendiri xtw d mna titik letaknya hubungan kami ne.

siapa lae kmu mw tw ? btau ja . aku explain . lu tnya , gua jwb ! :D

SD kawin ??? oh NO !!!

“kawin la kau..”

“ngee?ma sapa mau kawin ? haha .”

“dgn aku la.”

“aww. naek minang la..”

“haha.ckp mu tu bha.”

d suh SD ak kawin. haha . tp x plk dea mw kawin. dea kata buat pa mw kawin. jelek bha tuh. haha . ngam la . ak pun rsa gtu jg.

tp klu kw propose ak , spt biasa ak akn ckp “klu kw blh belikn ak cincin Tiffany tu, bru ak mw kawin ma kw” haha .

ak mw bha tuh Tiffany. impian ku dr dulu. ak ada check harganya. mw rm40 ribu jg. hehe. kaya bha jg kw kn syg ? belikn la bha ak. hehe.

eh .. btw, beberapa jam ne . ak tba2 tpkir . cmana la tuh kn klu dea kawin . aku cemana ? blh ka dea jd suami yg baek ? blh ka dea jd ayah yg baek ? bahagiakah isterinya nanti ? aiyer !! isteri !!! sepa isterinya nanti ????? ahhh .. mcm x blh trima la plk klu dea kawin .. klu kawin ma ak , ok ! x kisah . tp klu sma org laen … nangis x blagu la ne .. haha ..

ai ? npa ne . jatooh chenta ka sda sma SD mu ? haha . maybe . npa ak gelisah ea pkir psl dea d suh kawin ? and npa jg ak x blh trima klu dea kwin ma org laen . aiyo !

yg, tgu la ak bha . huhu . sma2 la kta . aisshh . sound so desperate owh . :p

W.H.A.T.T.H.E.F.I.S.H ?! (eps 1)

BEWARE OF DOGS !!!

HE’S DANGEROUS !!!

hurmm … fuckin crazy lerr .. honestly, for this tym being .. ak laparr .. haha .. but at the same tym ak PANAS GILA BERAPI RASA NAK SIAT2 JE KULIT ORG TUH ! HUH !!

statement di atas .. saya tujukan buat EX-rakan saya yg whom I thought baek.. hurmm ..

ne apa kes ne ? cecite2 …

ne.. ada la sorg makhluk tuhan ne.. hamba ALLAH la katakan.. yg ak da anggap mcm family sndri since ak skola rndh g.. ak rsa la kn.. ak xda buat slh pa2 bha kat dia ne.. ak only did the good deeds towards him.. ak xtw napa dia sanggup buat bgni kat ak ..

dia bkn buat gni dgn ak ja.. dgn kwn2 yg laen pun dia buat gni.. aisshh.. ntah la .. ak xtw la apa jg yg dea mw ne.. ntah la .. dpt duit kali dea kn klu dea buat gni .. S.A.K.I.T.J.I.W.A.K.A ???

1)   dea buruk2 kn ak.

ne ak x kisah sgt la .. dea pg ckp dgn kwn ak yg ak da .. ok .. ak straight forward ja la k .. SORRY KLU KASAR SGT..  hey ! da ada amaran kn b4 enter this blog . so, WTF ? ade ak kisah ?? back to the story .. dea ckp ngan kwn2 ak and even my ex yg ak da have sex dgn my ex dlu .. eeuuhhh !! apa ne ????? and then dea ckp lae yg ak have sex ngan ex ak tuh kat oil palm mill !! WHAT THE FISH ???? oil palm mill ??? xda kelas ok! tlg skit! pukimak babi kaw! lakhanat tul punya manusia! dea ckp dea nmpak, dea lah saksi kpd perbuatan terkutuk ak ngan ex ak tuh! ddaaaaaa ???? tlg skit ! ak x penah nak have sex kat palm oil mill ! what the hell yg kw ckp ne ?? mw ktwa tguling babi ak dgr bnda tuh .. ahha ..kw punya dick la tuh yg have sex , jaggin so hard dgn palm oil tree tuh ! *MIDDLEFINGER UP!*

2)   dea buruk2 kn bestie2 ak jgk.

ne lagi la satu hal . wat the fish jgk ! adlin, farah, nadia, joe da jd mangsa kpd manusia gila ne. psl adlin dgn nadia tu. kw ckp dpn2 ak kn ? kw jgn mw tpu larh! ak mc ingat lg. mmg la ak ne plupa, tp klu psl org bruk2kn kwn2 ak specially bestfriend ak. ak xkn lupa. oh yeah. btw, dorg da tw pun yg kw buruk2kn dorg . ak yg bgtau. so, kw mw buat apa kat ak ? x tkut pun . manusia mcm kw yg suka putar belit cerita ne xkn pnah nak bjaya lama2 kat dunia ne .. apa lagi d akhirat . tlg skit . tduh la lg yg bkn2 . FUCKIN CRAZY LA KAU NI LELAKI!! BODOH TAHAP PETALA KELAPAN!

3)   dea tduh ak pulak !

apa ne ??? napa ne ??? ak yg xda kena mengena dgn hidup kau yg menyedihkan tu pun kau nak tuduh? apa ? kau ckp ak plk yg pegi sebarkn bnda yg bkn2 psl kau? tlg skit. apa ak dpt bla buat bgtu? even dpt 1gazillion dollar pun ak x mw la weyh . buang masa ak ja nak buat dosa. dosa ak da berbakul ne. buat pa nak tmbh lg? ckup2 la ea. stiap hari ak buat dosa, tp xmw nya ak menambah dosa dgn cara m’buruk2 kn kau. semua tu miscommunication je.. plus, utk apa jg ak bruk kn kau? motif ? yes. even ak skit ati ngan kw, tp ak x pnah ada niat maw buat gtu. xpernah! not even in my life! so, jgn la mw buat spekulasi murahan kau yang x b’asas tu ! KITAI !

4)   dea perasan dowh!

ahha! x penah ak jmpa org mcm ne tw! prasan tahap gaban babe! ada ka patut dea ckp yg ak ne ska plk ma dea? hey! noted here. suka yg dea ckp tuh means ska a.k.a jatooh chenta ! tlg la . not even in my dream. so, what? ak rapat2 ma kau maknanya ak ska kw la??!!! so, ak rapat ma syahmie, mimie, and the rest of my guys friends tuh ak ka dgn dorg la jgk ?! yes! ak mmg ska dgn dorg. ska b’gaul. ska b’kwn. and bukannya ska nak mengawan! mcm kau! uurgghhh ! sakit ati ak la bla ingat kw ! ak x ska la org yg prasan gla babi mcm kau! tlg la! AKU TAK PERNAH NAK SUKA KAT KAU EVEN KAU ADALAH LELAKI TERAKHIR YANG ADA DI MUKA BUMI NI! sanggup mak jd anak dara tua tak kawen2 sampai mampos drpd nakkan kau lelaki oi! urgghh! tlg la ! fucking hell !

hurmm . ok la . da pnat ne tmbh dosa. nti ak akn post episode 2 and so on . next tym k .

ne skadar mw lepas skit ati ja . org ckp, x baek simpan . nti tmbh truk . so, ak crita la kat cni.

THERE ARE NO STUPID QUESTIONS, JUST STUPID PEOPLE!

ak mw yg mcm dlu ..

“ak cmburu sbb itu la ak diamkn diri”

suda2 la tu dir mw cmburu .. c ajai tu bknnya org yg ptut kw jeleskn .. dea tu kwnku ja, x pnh lbih dr itu .. ak anggap dea mcm abgku sda.. tlg la.. jan la mw cmbru bha ..klu ada pa2 slhku, ckp ja trus trg .. ak mnta maaf, ak prbtulkn sumanya ,, jan la bgni .. x senang atiku .. hurrmm …

ak pling x ska la keadaan bgni melanda ak .. x snang ak .. x tenang atiku .. ak pling x ska d c bgni .. diam2.. x text .. x call .. nothing!  makin jauh bha .. ak dgn kwn2 yg laen x jg gni .. x rpat cmana pun, ttp jg still contact2 .. tp kw , kw tu blh kira rpt bha jg .. cuz since January kta kwn kn .. tp skalinya plk, tba2 jd gni .. adehh ..

almost suma crita ak kongsi ma kw, skalinya gra2 satu bnda ja kta blh jd gni .. aisshhh .. ilang pelangiku bha.. xda sua yg blh c ceria ak tiap ari ..

apa lae cranya spaya kta blh jd mcm dlu lae ? ak rndu tym dlu2 ..  seriously , prlu ka ak ckp ma kw yg ak rindu kw .. apa cranya spaya kta blh jd mcm dlu lae ? ak rndu kta tym dlu .. L

kenapa ne ???

HEY ! wassup ! waitin for tomorrow , and I’ll be leavin !

wee~ x sbr sya mw tnggalkn tmpt ne bha . buhsan sua .

ngee~ sya mw komplen satu bnda ne .

wui . x than ak d c bgni bha !!! xku suka d c bgni . jan bgni bha! tlg la ea .

lyan la ak bgus2 bha . sjak bla ak x lyan kw bgus2 ne smpi kw buat bgni ma ak ?

aisshh . x pnah2 ak rsa bgni . npa jua ne ? klu ada smthg wrong, btau la.

kta bincang bgus2 . bkn bgni. ari tu kw ada ckp kn sbb kw bgni , I thought bnda ne sua settle. skalinya , lngsung xda ! mcm x settle . ok fine ! klu kw xmw contact ma ak lg, ak x kisah. tp, btau la .. jan buat org bgni .

laen2 ak rsa . maybe kw xtw yg ak ne jnis org yg xska lose a friendship . it feels like hell !

I’ve did wat eu want , I’m willing to do anything as long as it can heal our friendship !

ak x blh gni trus bha . aisshh . laen ak rsa . tlg la .

x tenang ak . ssh ati ku sbb kwn ku ada yg bgni ..

info !

HEY ! guess what ? I’m leavin . I’m leaving soon. aku akan pergi. aku akan pergi untuk beberapa ketika. aku xkn btau kmu aku ke mana . juz few people noe ak akn ke mna. so. bubbye.

maybe ak xkn update fb ak buat beberapa ari tu. and ak maybe xkn online buat beberapa ari tu juga. so, ak akn hilang . lenyap . bubbye kepada semua. ak syg kau . still . sorry x info ma kw ak mw pg ke mana . k . <3 eu . still .

kesunyian ..

ngee~~ sunyi idup ku skrg bha.. apa ? c madir ? kimxx kmu ne mnanya..sudah! jgn tnya dea lg! dea suda lenyap dr idup ku .. jgn ckp psl deal g ! ak mls sua mw pkir psl dea . bkn apa . ak byk lg bnda dlm idup ne mw d crita . bkn juz dea ja . byk lg bnda yg lbih pnting dlm idup ne .ak sbnrnya mls mw ckp psal dea bha . eh . brapa kali sua ne ak mention yg ak mls sua mw ckp & pkir psal dea ? bru 1 bha kn ? hehe. bha.

          mw ckp psl betapa sunyi idupku . xda org mw d text . xda boyfriend. yeay! single bha saya! haha . nah. sua single ne, mknanya byk la msa ku utk dri sndri. utk pkir bnda laen selaen drpd pkir lelaki! hihi . bebas wha idup saya. tapi gara2 c big panda tuh ak x bebas sgt cuz bkas dea mrh kn ak yg tym ak mw jln ma c ajai tuh . kalah2 prangai mak ak weyh dea mrh. ngee~ kw jelek! :p !!

           

          ak mcm mw memaki bha. tp xtw apa bnda yg mw d maki. aisshh . ntah la . ak pun sndri x pham apa yg ak mw sbnrnya. yg ak tw ak sunyi ja skrg. hee. susah juak bha klu x skola sua..xda bnda pnting yg mw d buat. xda priority.klu dlu. keja umah msti d c siap., study utk exam, and yg pling best..byk bnda yg kna pkir which is bnda tu pntg like upsr, pmr, spm, exams, prasaan cgu, byangan msa depan..klu x bljr, x pndai, result x bgus, kw mw jd apa ? tukang sapu sampah ? itu yg slalu d pkir tym skola..

         

          skrg..xda sua! apa lagi result sua kuar kn.. nah.. d tau sda.. skrg ne, mnunggu ja panggilan mana2 .. hee.. buhsan.. keja dgn ibu.. buhsan jg.. ari2 layan facebook. kadang2 buhsan jg.. sjak bbrapa minggu ni , ak c online ja chat ku d fb .. nah.. rmai la yg mngajak chat tuh .. aisshh.. bru mnta num hp.. mls nya ak.. ak x ska la.. apa lg sjak mnggu ini ak sda c single relationship status ku d fb.. tmbh rmai la lg yg chat ma ak..heisshh..

          nti ak gnti tuh relationship status p separated.. haha.. best tuh .. lma sda mw buat tuh .. tp x pnah t’buat2 .. hurmmm .. MOTIF ak post utk ne kali adalah untuk berkongsi rasa tentang betapa sedihnya ak ne hari .. ek ? ak x tw la npa ak sedey2 ne .. aisshh .. pilu bha hatiku .. xda prasaan.. kesunyian ak .. L L L L

saya x berani ! huu

 SD  is back . but , I ignore him . Cuz I’ve got chubby .

Sebenarnya blh ja ak hangout dgn SD .. tp ak tkut dgn chubby . ak xtw knapa ak tkut dgn dea . maybe since kejadian ak dgn ajai ari tu . what ? apakah yg tjd d “kejadian ak dgn ajai”? hurmm . lemme tell ya .

kejadian aku dan ajai

ari tu ajai update status FB .. dea kata mw blik kunak .. trus ak komen la .. ak kata “nah .. ada la ne laek d nmpak muka c ajai ne mnjalar d pkan ne .. hahah” then dea reply larr .. “ea..jln2 kta dibah..kw tgu ak sna..” trus ak bls blik “bha2..d tgu kw..hahah” d bls nya plk .. “ea..alert2 la hp mu..tgu ak msj..hahah..”

ak pkirkn c ajai maen2 ja .. skalinya btul2 dea msj .. t’ingat plk ak yg dea mmg ada jnji dgn ak dlu..dea ckp klu dea blik kunak, dea bwa ak jln2.. nah.. rupanya masih laek d ingatnya janjinya tu ma ak..ngee~~ *giggle*

jd mw d short storykan..ak btau la c madir ne yg ak mw jln ma c ajai.. skalinya, mrh plk dea ma ak.. aik! marah.. d teriak2nya ak..dea ckp “saya tidak suka bha!!saya tidak suka klu gupren sya jln dgn laki laen!!” mak aih..bingit telinga ak..huh! trus low plk voicenya, dea ckp “cuba pkir klu kwn2 papa nmpk bby jln dgn laki laen..apa dorg ckp?” hurmm..

aku xtw la.. mls sua mw pkir.. sentap ak d teriakkn bgtu..diam2 trus ak..trus aku ckp “ea la..xla aku bjln ma c ajai..”

nduk kcian c ajai..skalinya tym dea blik sndakan, trus dea msj ak.. he says “salam dibah..blik sua ak ne p sndkn..hurmm..next tym .. mcm xda rzeki ja kta ne mw jmpa tw .. L”

alala .. smileynya tuh.. buat ak pilu ja .. cian c ajai ..bkn apa .. ak ne jenis org yg, klu d ajak jln, ak ikut ja .. sda kebiasaan bha.. dr dlu laek .. ermm ..

nah … start tym tuh .. tkut sua ak mw jln2 ma sapa2 .. klu mw jln pun, ak btau dea juak .. hahah .. penakut ..

tp sjak kblakangan ini, ak mcm rebel ckit .. jln ke mana2 , x pnah btau sua .. jarang mw btau .. unless dea yg menanya “bby d mana ne?” bru ak mw m’btau .. hee .. sakit hati saia! dea ari tuh kedapatan b’jln x m’btau ! nah! ngam2 saia pun x m’btau ! elok la sgt ! ngam sua kta .. bgni la ne keadaan nya ..

skrg ne, SD slalu text ak.. says “d mana kau ? jln kta ?” .. nah .. slalunya ak trus m’jwb tuh .. “d umah ja ne.. bha .. yuk la.. ambik ak d bagiang skrg..cpt!” tp skrg .. ak x bls pun , klu bls pun ak tpu ja dea .. kata ak d twu la, d kk la.. hurmm .. takut ak .. itu ja .. ak xtw knapa .. tkut ak dgn big panda .. ahah..

jd , skrg ne kesimpulannya .. peratus utk ak mw nakal2 atau mw buat scandal laek adalah 0.00% !!! dan kemungkinannya adalah maximum than tipis apa ? ah. itu la tuh . lngsung teda. ak x blh maen2 pun . even d fb gurau2 , teda2 . x blh sua . hahah . cian dba. :p 

SD is back !!~

sya happy .. :D

sebelum itu .. lemme nyanyi skit .. huu ..

bintang terlihat terang ,
saat dirimu datang ,
cinta yang dulu hilang ,
kini kembali pulang ,

lihatlah dia mulai bernyanyi ,
coba merangkai mimpi ,
cinta yang dulu pergi ,
kini datang kembali ,

kekasih yang dulu hilang ,
kini dia tlah kembali pulang ,
akan ku bawa dia terbang ,
damai bersama bintang ,
kekasih yang dulu hilang ,
kini dia tlah kembali pulang ,
betapa senang ku dendangkan ,
dan takkan ku lepaskan ....

ngeehee~~~ happy saya bha ..

my SD .. comeback .. hee~~ to sapa2 yg xtw spa kah gerangan SD tu .. buat2 taw ja la ea .. hee~~~ happy saya !!!!!!

thanx for coming back .. thanx for coming back and look for me .. i appreciate it a lot hunn .. cayunk eu sgt2! thanx jugak cuz explain kpd saya why eu couldn't be reached for a few months.. thanx jga cuz bg number phone kw blik .. thanx a lot k .. we'll keep in touch ..